Theme: Diagnosis Experience
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Subtheme
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n (%)
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Delayed time to diagnosis
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4 (50%)
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“I've been treated for different kinds of diseases until I came to [cancer center] in my fourth year, and they did the same routine that all the doctors had been doing, but the studies didn't show up, like, between four to five years in the disease.” -P1, F
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Reaction to diagnosis
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8 (100%)
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“I didn't, at that point, understand what it really was. I think the question I asked my dermatologist was, is this something that can kill me? And he answered, ‘most people die with it, not of it’. So that, to me, just kind of took the weight off, and I just went about life as if everything was fine.” -P2, M
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Theme: Physical Consequences
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Subtheme
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n (%)
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Pruritus
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8 (100%)
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“A lot of itchiness on my body. I was scratching all the time.” -P7, M
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Pain
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3 (38%)
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“Sometimes, I get like, pins and needles. You know, used to get it, when it was bad, I used to get it all the time, for some reason. Back of my thighs and across my back. It was horrible.” -P8, M
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Mobility
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5 (63%)
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“My wrist and my ankles, my, well, my feet swelled up, so it was hard to walk and things like that.” -P3, F
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Physical appearance
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3 (38%)
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“The itch was very tormenting, and the deformity of my face was horrible. And the color of my skin darkened tremendously. I didn't look like the same person anymore. I looked like a beast at the beginning, the beginning was beastly.” -P5, F
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Sleep quality
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2 (25%)
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“Before treatment it was... waking up, itching, just overall being uncomfortable.” -P3, F
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Theme: Psychosocial Consequences
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Subtheme
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n (%)
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Sense of lost identity
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3 (38%)
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“I was distraught because I watched myself just turn to another... another individual that I could not I can't explain it, but I was in disbelief to see that I just sit there and watch myself... just change to another person.” -P1, F
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Self-consciousness
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3 (38%)
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“People look. You go to a ballgame, my son's a little league game, I sit in the bleachers with shorts and the person next to me looks at my knee. You know? That looks like a rash. Looks like, you know...” -P8, M
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Social isolation
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3 (38%)
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“It affected my relationship with my friends. My coworkers, they, a lot of [them] cut themselves off, you know, from me. They stopped communicating with me. I would call, and they would not answer the phone.”-P5, F
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Theme: Financial Implications
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Subtheme
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n (%)
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Loss of employment
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3 (38%)
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“I didn't retire. I was let go. Right. And then because, then it came to a thing where I couldn't work these days, because [Doctor's name] had me there three days a week. So, it just turned out that I can't come into work.” -P8, M
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Healthcare costs
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2 (25%)
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“Finances... yeah, 'cause doctor bills start rolling in.”-P3, F
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Theme: Questions and Concerns Surrounding Diagnosis
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Subtheme
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n (%)
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Disease etiology
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4 (50%)
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“I guess, probably like anyone else, just, what does it stem from? Basically, yeah, what is, what causes it? Yeah, basically, what's, what's the root cause of the disease?” -P4, F
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Lack of cure
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3 (38%)
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“Like, the way they will spend money for other cancers, you know, they would give big money for other cancers to be researched, researched more. I don't think, I don't think cutaneous T-cell lymphoma is getting that acknowledge, that acknowledgement from the government. Because, because it's not, it's like, a rare disease, but a lot of people are having it now.” -P1, F
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Time to diagnosis
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2 (25%)
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“If it was a perfect world... I would have liked to have been listened to. I felt like one of the reasons my diagnosis took as long as it did, like, to form a diagnosis, is because I'm a black woman in America, and I feel like black women aren't taken serious in the medical field.” -P3, F
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Theme: Healthcare Experience
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Subtheme
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n (%)
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Access to information
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7 (88%)
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“I feel I can pick up the phone and get an answer to whatever question I might have. So, that's very reassuring.” -P2, M
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Quality of care
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5 (63%)
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“… [H]is bedside manner is, he's like, so enthusiastic about treating you, you know? And like I said, detail, it was so, I mean, he went through my whole PET scan. I had a PET scan done from my forehead to just above my knees. And he went through every single inch of that PET scan with me and my wife in full detail.” -P8, M
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Multiple therapies
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3 (38%)
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““’You did this one. You did that. Oh, you had an allergic reaction. Okay, now this is the next one’... am I a guinea pig or something? What are we, trying me out?” -P5, F
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Theme: Coping Mechanisms
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Subtheme
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n (%)
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Self-acceptance
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3 (38%)
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“I had to get to a part where I acknowledge what it was and stop being in denial, just acknowledge and say, okay, it's there. I have to find a way to live with it and don't let it be a part of me.” -P1, F
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Adaptability
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5 (63%)
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“No, no, I mean, it, it gets me a little disappointed when I realize I can't do everything I used to do,but other than that, you know, you just try a little harder, that's all.” -P2, M
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Sharing experience
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3 (38%)
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“I appreciate you giving me the opportunity to share. And actually, it really felt good, you know, explaining myself in the questions and it just... I felt good about it, about sharing what I've been going through for the last five years.” -P5, F
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Theme: Sources of Support
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Subtheme
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n (%)
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Family
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6 (75%)
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“My wife and my three sons...” -P7, M
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Medical professionals
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5 (63%)
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“I mean, health professionals, definitely, I think I have a great team of people working around me. I couldn't say more about them.” -P2, M
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Faith
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4 (50%)
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“I guess that's why I don't really worry, or it doesn't really bother me. Because, you know, I know it's in God's hands. And I mean, what else can I do but do what I need to do?” -P4, F
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Therapist
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1 (13%)
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“Having a support system, seeing a therapist, my faith.” -P3, F
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