We conducted an in-depth interview of individual women with an average duration of 40- 90 minutes each. In contrast, the focus group discussion covered each dimension related to women's reproductive health and women empowerment with an average duration of one and half an hour. The mean average age of women was 26 years with a range of between 19-32. Twenty-one women were younger than 25 years old, whereas 14 women were lower than thirty years old and only two women above thirty years past. The highest percentage of women attained primary education (1-5) with 37.8% follow up by secondary (9-10) and junior secondary (6-8) level 27% and 18.9% respectively. Approximately 80% of the women in the sample were Hindu and the rest were Muslim. Nearly 59.4% of women had had prior abortion experience, and eight women reported having more than one abortion. An average number of children were four, and only 18.9% of women were using contraception to avoid further pregnancy. Findings from the focus group discussion and in-depth interview are presented below about knowledge, perception, attitude, expectation and social stigma about abortion.
Knowledge, attitude and access to Family Planning
Women’s knowledge, attitude and accessibility to family planning methods directly reduce the risk of unsafe abortion practices. The majority of women have known about some of the methods of family planning, but the overall use was very low. Women have some knowledge, but their attitude towards using family planning methods is highly negative. Most of the women perceived that family planning methods make them infertile and impotent. Significant concerns of women have its side-effects, disapproval by husband and mother-in-law, family size, religious reasons and accessibility and affordability of the particular methods.
Nevertheless, the role of religion is also considered one of the essential factors that influenced women for shaping attitudes about family planning methods. Generally, in the Muslim faith, sterilisation and abortion are not allowed and recognised as a sin; therefore, most Muslim women do not go for using family planning methods and abortion services whether they conceived unintentionally. One of the Muslim women said:
"My husband mostly lives in Mumbai due to work purposes, and whenever he has come, he doesn't use contraception because it is not permissible in our religion...He used to [say] children are God gifted and we have not right to refuse the God gift." (In-depth Interview, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 25)
Another woman from the same religion said:
“I already have five children, and unintentionally two months pregnant currently. [I want] to abort this child, but our religion does not give permission to do this...even [my husband] also opposed to abortion...still [my] health is not good, but I have family pressure to give birth this child.” (In-depth, Biribari Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 31)
However, women have partial knowledge about family planning methods that hinder them to use them in the first place and always have a fear of its side effects. Women know different family planning methods by name but without their application and significance. Such as condoms, sterilisation, pills, injectables, and IUD/ PPIUD implants have known by many of them, but accessibility and affordability are the major challenges. One woman said:
“I know some of the modern contraception methods, but I don’t know where I can opt it and who will provide”. (Focus Group, Barmalpur Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 25)
Another woman said:
“I know that family planning is a good method to reduce the size of the family, but its side- effects are the major problem for women’s health in general”. (Hariharpur village)
Other women from Thakur Basti:
“I have a piece of knowledge about most of the modern family planning methods such as contraception pills, injection, operations and condoms but I am living in that family where talks about these things are unacceptable”. (Focus Group, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 24)
Another woman from a lower-income family has a different attitude regarding family planning she said:
“The government initiated of family planning programme because they permanently sterilised women or men for the name of the family planning programme.And it is not acceptable by most of the women in my family and community”. (Focus group discussion, Hariharpur Village, India, age 27)
One participant from the Nishad community (fisherman community) said:
“My husband is working in another city, and I am living with my in-laws. By the time my husband comes home, we don’t have any contraception. For me, accessibility is the major problem, and I feel timid about buying a family planning method from a chemist shop”. (In-depth Interview Chandwak Village, India, age 29)
Factors influence woman/husband/ couple to opt for abortion services
There are many factors which emphasised women seeking unsafe abortion for the first instance. Most women intentionally do not want further pregnancy, but socio-cultural and economic reasons enforce them for unintended pregnancy and unsafe abortion. Women have limited autonomy to control their health decisions in rural areas of Jaunpur, Uttar Pradesh, India. A substantial number of women who participated in in-depth interviews have an opinion to opt for abortion at a first place is not wrong. Women have an abortion history in the past and supported abortion in certain conditions. One woman said:
“It is right of women to obtain an abortion or give birth to a child... [Society] will not take any responsibility neither for women health nor child upbringing.” (In-depth, Thunhi Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 23)
Whereas, sex-selective preferences also exist in India by using modern technology prenatal sex determined and aborted female foetuses. The law has prohibited it, but in rural society, a patriarchal mindset influences continuing abortion after prenatal sex determination. In rural villages of Jaunpur, the sex-selective abortion practice is ongoing but in a very secretive manner. During in-depth interviews, two women directly talked about their sex-selective abortions in the past. However, two indirectly confessed that they know about their foetus sex beforehand. When this information was linked with her pregnancy history, then we indeed said that women did sex-selective abortion. Four women out of 37 obtained sex-selective abortion. One of the participants knows about her sex-selective abortion and said:
“I know this was not right, but my husband’s pressure on me. He wants a boy because boys cost of parenting much cheaper than girls. He said [husband]...keep dropping girls until you get a boy.” (In-depth Interview, Faridpur Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 23)
Another woman stated:
“I have two girls; therefore, my husband and in-laws want the next child should be a boy. During my third pregnancy, my sister-in-law brought me to Banaras [Varanasi] for checkups then I got to know about a girl foetus in my belly. I took the prescribed medicine of the doctor and aborted my baby." (In-depth Interview, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 24)
Another more experienced participant said:
“I know there is no difference between boy and girls, but everyone wants a boy first, and ours [women] status in the family also measures by having a higher number of boys child.” (Focus Group Discussion, Hariharpur Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 26)
Another stated:
“I have no choice except to obtain an abortion... [My husband and I] decided to abort this child because already we have three girls child. We do not want another girl child further...” (In-depth Interview, Hariharpur Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 22)
However, the desire for a son in a family is one of the causes of unintended pregnancies that end with induced abortion, maternal morbidity and mortality, and poor child health outcomes. In such types of conditions, women may choose to terminate their pregnancies when expecting daughters but carry on their pregnancies when expecting sons. One woman said:
“I have already four girls, but my husband wants one boy child intentionally. He [husband] said a boy only could help in his father’s business. Therefore I aborted two girls in the womb in three subsequent years” (In-depth Interview, Faridpur Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 29)
Indeed, the unmet need for contraception significantly influences the reproductive intentions of women. The demographic health survey (DHS) defines unmet needs as the percentage of women who do not want to become pregnant but currently are not using contraception and want to stop or delay childbearing. The unmet need for contraception is high in rural areas where high rates of unintended pregnancy risk. One participant from the Harijan community confers that:
“I do not want further pregnancy, but my husband not allowed using any contraception during sex due to feeling of dissatisfaction.”(In-depth Interview, Thunhi Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 24)
Whereas another woman said:
“I live in a nuclear family with my husband and three children. Although my husband doesn’t want to use any modern contraption method and I never permit him to do sex without contraception because I do not want any child further.” (Focus Group Discussion, Barmalpur Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 25)
Whereas one woman said:
"I want injection [contraceptive method] to avoid further pregnancy-related complication, but the price is about 300-400 Rs. for three months...my husband's wage is only 500 Rs. per month then how we can think to invest such huge money on me when I know he [husband] has plenty of responsibility on his shoulders...although this is not the permanent and secure method of contraception.” (In-depth Interview, Madhar Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 24)
Furthermore, the economic status of the family is one of the significant factors that is directly linked with induced abortion, whereas inverse relation between sex-selective abortion and the economic profile of the family. One woman stated:
“It doesn't matter that next child would be a girl or a boy for me. My husband wants a son, but we can't do anything we have not that much money to test foetus sex.” (Focus Group Discussion, Ramdevpur Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 19)
Some women talked about the economic hardship they experienced and opted for abortion in the past. One woman said:
"I always try to convince my husband for using contraception, but my husband said he has not that much money to invest in contraception." (In-depth Interview, Kakrapar Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 24)
Another woman stated:
“I know contraception is the best method to avoid unintended and mistimed pregnancy, but the cost of contraception always hindered my decision.” (In-depth, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 32)
One participant from Nishad (fisher) community supports abortion in particular circumstances with her beliefs in parenting a child in a low-income family:
“We do not have that much money to provide good education to another child...[my husband] has no fixed source of income, so it will be very difficult for us for parenting a child in this meagre condition. It's better just to have an abortion [...] instead of giving birth." (In-depth Interview, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 25)
Abortion Trajectory: Role of Husband/ Mother-in-law (MIL)/ Other Peer Friends
Globally, the majority of women have a negative opinion regarding induced abortion. A general decision in focus group discussion provides different viewpoints like a woman who seeks abortion is considered an "immoral" and "irresponsible". Women perceived that it is a crime when someone intentionally murdered a child. No one has the right to permit to do this without any permission, especially their husband and in-laws. Most women feel guilty and self-judged themselves when they were seeking an abortion. One participant said:
“I do not know why people do this. [an abortion...] I am opposed to doing this... it is an illegal and immoral practice which most of the women do secretly. When something does secretly, it is considered a sin in our Indian society.”(Focus Group, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 24)
Another woman said,
“You do not have the right [to abortion][...]abortion is related to a collective decision of the family. And when everyone knows that induced abortion is a crime then why people do this [...] they should have to be careful when they do not want further children and use contraception that is easily available in the market." (Focus Group, Barmalpur Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 25)
However, the dominant behaviour of the husband and mother-in-law in reproductive decisions leads to abortion-related complications. Abortion leads to an end mainly of the girl’s child. One woman said, “I already have three children, two girls and one boy child but still my mother-in-law wants another boy child and told me in her words that nothing happens with one eye; at least two boys should be in the family rather than one more girl” (Focus Group Discussion, Biribari Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 27)
One woman said:
“I gave birth to four girls, but my husband and mother-in-law want one boy child. Therefore my mother-in-law always tries to scorn me and told me [...]If you cannot give birth to a boy, then you too have no work here [in this house]. To run our lineage, the birth of a boy is a must, not these girls.” (In-depth Interview, Madhar Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 25)
Another woman stated that:
"Unwillingly I was pregnant with my third child [...] I felt malaise and my in-laws family do not care about me they only wanted my baby, and he must be a boy [...] finally they got. But after that pregnancy, my menstruation periods stopped. Now two years passed away, but my menstruation periods didn’t come yet. My family never accompany me to consult with a doctor.”(In-depth Interview, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 25)
Apart from the husband & mother-in-law (MIL) other family members, neighbours and distant relatives also influence the decision of women/couples to induce abortion. One participant said:
“My two elders sisters-in-law suggested me abortion is much better than taking care of a girl child until she may get married” (In-depth Interview, Chandwak Village, India, age 32)
Another woman said:
“I rarely have a discussion with my neighbours [women] about inducing abortion practice during working in a field. We can say that no one individual women want abortion intentionally, her age, status in the family, or the number of children already she has may highly influence her abortion decision”. (Focus Group Discussion, Khalia Khas Village, India, age 28)
In addition, peer friends from the same age group of women have different perceptions regarding abortion. One woman said:
“I talk to my sister who lives in Delhi. She [women’s sister] said to me that abortion is not a crime but to induce abortion in that situation when it is necessary and it is better to use cure such as contraception rather than go for an abortion”. In-depth Interview, Faridpur Village, India, age 23)
Individual Fear, Community Norms and Cultural Practices
The spectrum of fear beliefs, and community stigma affects the individual level to the society level. Individual beliefs and cultural practices are manifestations of societal norms. In rural areas, women who do not have a son are considered as aspersion in society. A woman, who has done clandestine abortion in the past without concern with family members (in-law’s family, including the husband) is seen in a disrespected manner. Beyond describing perception, expectation and socio-cultural reasons for how community members felt about abortion services. In most cases, societal norms override individual beliefs and expectations. In addition, little/ partial knowledge about abortion services makes women scared and opt for abortion services surreptitiously. Generally, women do not know the exact source of information which knowledge is passed through. Women tended to receive information from different sources, such as stories that come from friends and relatives whom they heard from social and community gatherings. Prejudice thoughts and unclear information lead to further complications in further pregnancies. One participant said:
"Abortion is the wrong thing, and community disapprove of it generally.” (Focus Group Discussion, Thunhi Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 23)
While during the focus group discussion, one woman said community response retaliates against individual women's abortion-related decisions. She said:
"Society looks differentially... when they [community members] get to know when I had an abortion in the past.”(Focus Group Discussion, Hariharpur village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 28) In contrast, another woman said:
“When I had an abortion I feel unwell, and my sister-in-law looks me in a very suspicious manner...no one help me in household chores that time I felt like I did a very heinous crime.” (In-depth Interview, Kakrapar village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 24)
One participant shares her experience as:
“When I got to know that I am five weeks pregnant with my fourth baby... I want to discuss this news firstly with my husband, but he was in Mumbai, and he has no time to hear me then I decided to abort this baby after one week.[...] I took medicine for abortion...but I always have a fear that I did something wrong secretly.” (In-depth Interview, Biribari village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 27)
Contrarily, one of the respondents from lower-middle-income families said:
“I did abortion. [...] I felt, I did the right thing. [...] Earlier I have fear regarding misconception of infertility, but when I took abortion under the proper guidance of gynaecologist [...] now, it changed my perspective also.”(In-depth Interview, Chandwak Village, Pradesh, India, age 30)
Individual fear and cultural beliefs manifested in women's abortion experiences. A woman who seeks abortion services has different views than those who didn't do it in the past. It means that past abortion-related experiences are incorporated into women’s perspectives. Sometimes it may be changed when an individual woman gets into contact with other social networks. One woman said:
“Prior, I have a fear with the name of the abortion [...] I did not know how other women may get ready for this, but when I choose abortion for the first time then I realise that this is not the wrong thing.” (In-depth Interview, Khaliya Khas Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 28)
Another woman stated:
“One of my close friends explained to me that abortion is not a bad thing and it’s not affected the health of the women too [...] even not impact on further pregnancies.” (Focus Group Discussion, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 29)
One woman said:
“I do not know when I got pregnant... after my marriage, my periods usually come after two and a half years, and suddenly I got to know that I am pregnant. [...] My mistimed and unwanted pregnancies make me stressed all the time. In the end, I have no option apart from that to opt for an abortion. My family opposed no to do it because it is wrong” (In-depth Interview, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 25)
Women's age is also a major concern of social stigma. Women above 30 and below 24 years of age are seen as suspected manner when they obtained an abortion. When newlyweds women have ever faced stigma related to their very first pregnancy. For example, one woman said:
“I never thought, I was pregnant within two months of my marriage. It was shocking news for me, and I did not want to get pregnant so soon. [...] I thought of abortion, but mother-in-law persuades me about abortion of a very first child make me infertile and cause of pregnancy-related complications in future.”(Focus Group Discussion, Faridpur Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 23)
In addition, the pressure of family expectations also leads to mistimed and unwanted pregnancy. One woman said:
“I have four girls, and I do not want further any child...but my mother-in-law always pressurised me. [...] I must have one son and told ‘ek aurat apne prajanan kaal khatam hone tak hi bache peda kr sakti hai’ [a woman can only give birth children until the end of her reproductive age] [...]” (In-depth Interview, Kakrapar Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 24)
However, another woman said:
“Currently I am 32 years old, and when I got to know that I am pregnant, made me feel so embarrassed. I have to abort this child at any cost because I know that ‘samaj wale kiya kahege mere bare mai’ [what society will talk about me]. My elder child is now 17 years old, what he will think about me that ‘ki yeh koi umar hai bacha peda karne ki’ [Is this the age to give birth to a child]. [...] No no I do not want this will happen to me. Instead, it’s better to abort this child.” (Focus Group Discussion, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 32)
It represents how women's decisions related to their reproductive health are governed by social prejudices. Sometimes the decision of abortion took by the woman herself or accompanied by her husband also, but most of the time it is influenced by other family members, neighbours and distinct relatives.
Role of Health Care Services in Abortion
Many of the women reported that they do not know about the abortion service provider in their local village. The social network with close family and friends plays an important role to consult and carry out the abortion process. One woman said:
“I usually share my health-related problems with my childhood friend who lives in my home village, she [friend] suggests to me a doctor far away from my village [in-law’s home village] for seeking an abortion service. [...] I feel uncomfortable and always being in fear of how will my community members react when they get to know about my abortion trajectory.” (In-depth Interview, Biribari Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 29)
Another woman from a lower-income family said:
“I live in a joint family and discuss my health-related problem with my sister-in-law. [...] I obtained abortion services from the suggested clinic by her because it is a very private topic, so I usually discussed it with only my sister-in-law.” (In-depth Interview, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 27)
It shows that trust-building among close relatives and friends very essential to obtaining abortion-related health care services. Furthermore, the husband and mother-in-law’s family mainly decided to have an abortion and where to seek health care. While many women told us that they preferably discussed abortion-related issues with only close ones because there is a very less chance to disperse information and kept secretly. One woman stated:
“I think, abortion-related issues and problems are very secretive in nature and only to discuss with a very close and trustworthy person who never disclosed to anybody.” (Focus Group Discussion, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 26)
Another woman stated:
“I do not know about much of this village because I came here after marriage. I discussed my unwanted pregnancy-related issues with my husband and elder sister-in-law only. She [sister-in-law] suggests abortion and accompanies me to seeking abortion services.” (In-depth Interview, Barmalpur Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 30)
Contrary to this, seven women out of thirty-seven never discussed their abortion-related discussions with their in-law's families. One woman said:
“I do not believe in anybody in my in-law’s family. I preferred to seek abortion from my mother’s home.” (In-depth Interview, Khaliya Khas Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 28) Another woman said:
“I always wait to go to my mother’s home during any health-related problem because there I can share anything with my mother and close friends without any kind of hesitation.” (Focus Group Discussion, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 26)
One woman said:
“If you choose abortion outside the village for the reason of confidentiality, people never get the chance to judge the women. Even if women started getting an abortion in the same village social stigma and cultural practices always hinder them badly.” (Focus Group Discussion, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 26)
While 40.5% of women seek abortion services from chemist shops followed by public and private health facilities with 29.7% and 24.3% respectively. The majority of the respondent seeks abortion medicine from chemist shop; there are many reasons which pursued them for seeking abortion through abortion pills (mifepristone and misoprostol). These pills are generally purchased by close family members and friends of women. Generally, women took the pill to seek abortion of unwanted pregnancy without consultation with the doctor due to economic hardship, negligence of family and community participation, social stigma and unmet need for contraception. One of the respondents said:
“I took one medicine that was brought by my husband from a chemist to abort my pregnancy. After my periods stopped, I felt a serious stomachache, we [me and my husband] consulted with the doctor, and after the ultrasound got to know some tissues remain inside my womb. For that my operation happened”.(In-depth Interview, Khaliya Khas Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 28)
Another woman from a low-income family said:
"I have to manage all the work in the absence of my husband. He lives mostly time in Mumbai and quarterly sends some amount of money. It is not enough for us to bear and care for another child. During the last visit of my husband, I got pregnant that was an unwanted pregnancy, we both do not want any further children; therefore, my neighbour brought abortion pills for me. After that, I am facing some health-related problems such as headaches, irregular periods and continuous stomachaches. Still, it’s ok for me because we cannot afford the high fees of consultation and doctor.” (In-depth Interview, Khaliya Khas Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 28)
One woman faced various challenges due to her unsafe abortion. She said:
"I became pregnant in the same months as my marriage, although the delivery was normal. [...] The very next month, I got my periods again and became pregnant. [...] This time, I do not want to pregnant so soon; therefore, I took medicine for abortion from the clinic and aborted the pregnancy. Within a year of my first child's delivery, I got pregnant once again. This time I could not do anything [...] after delivery of a girl child, I told my husband that uses contraception; otherwise, I will get the sterilisation done. But initially 3-4 months my husband used condoms and later stopped it. Then my periods were missed for two consecutive months I tested and found I again got pregnant this time I retook medicine and aborted. I have faced many health-related problems since then my periods got disturbed, constant backache, continuously white discharge and pain in my lower belly. My husband refused to pay for my treatment. I feel weak, malaise and not able to do household chores properly." (In-depth Interview, Ramdevpur Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 27)
In contrast, doctors' and staff's behaviour in both public and private health centres hindered women who want to seek health care. The abusive tone and awkward words of medical staff develop a negative feelings in women. One woman expressed her negative experiences and said:
“It was my first pregnancy in the community health facility centre (CHC). [...] I was in a panic and bore so much pain that time because going to deliver a baby within the next couple of hours. Still, the doctor spoke very violently and said very frightful words to women who go for delivery. [...] It was such a horrible experience for me, and I decided never to go again to that place.” (Focus Group Discussion, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 26)
Another woman stated:
“It has happened at both the public and private health centre that medical staff talk in a very rudeness manner with their patients mostly women who come for seeking pregnancy and abortion-related services. The poor women have to bear all these nonsense not just she liked, but his family not affords the cost of private clinics.” (Focus Group Discussion, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 30)
One woman said:
“I sought abortion service in a private hospital with my sister-in-law. [...]Doctor asked so many personal questioned that embarrassed me to answer in the front of my sister-in-law.” (In-depth Interview, Madhar Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 25)
One woman said:
“I sought for abortion service in a private clinic, but there women staff continuously gossiping about my husband relation and past delivers. [...] It hurts me a lot, and I never go there again.” (Focus Group Discussion, Ramdevpur Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 29)
In addition, many social norms against abortion impede women to alter their decision. The medical staffs of both the public and private health facilities try to impose their decisions on women because they are also highly influenced by the social and cultural norms of rural settings. One woman said:
“I fully prepared for sought abortion service and the medical staff said it is wrong and for that, I will have to bear so much pain. I left from there and quit the plan of abortion.” (Focus Group Discussion, Kakrapar Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 24)
Another woman said, “After the second pregnancy, I want some time to get again pregnant. [...] Therefore, I consult with the doctor about abortion. [...] But after abortion produces, they [providers] inserted copper-T without my counsel, they lied to me.” (In-depth Interview, Thunhi Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 24)
Whereas on the contrary, one woman said, “I thought negative before obtaining abortion services. [...] The treatment procedure was good, and the doctor counselled me before the procedure and gave me one day time to discuss it with family and friends. After treatment doctor suggested contraceptives too." (Focus Group Discussion, Ramdevpur Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 29)
One woman who belongs to a low-income family stated:
“I do not want another child. Therefore, my husband and I decided for seeking an abortion. [...] We obtained abortion from a community health centre located at Biribari village. I still remembered that horrifying day; doctors faced complications during my abortion procedure and then immediately they suggested shifting me to Danganj health centre. [...] I will always be thankful to public health facility doctors for their treatment and care.” (In-depth Interview, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 29) Many positive experiences never come in front of people, but negative experiences counterpart people's perceptions and expectations.
Besides, several women reported guidance provided by providers instructed them to use the contraception such as condoms, injections and copper-T with details conversations about their pros and cons. In some of the cases, providers ask questions when women have already a child and want no baby within the next one or two years, so why they are not using any contraception method. Many women agreed with the provider’s discussion and engaged in high conservation with providers to get more detailed information. One provider shared her experience:
“She [provider] said I had already four children. During the birth of my fourth child, the doctor suggested the use of contraception, and after the proper counselling doctor inserted copper-T. [...] now I feel comfortable. (In-depth Interview, Faridpur Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 29)
The majority of women reported a lack of infrastructure and long queues as other major reasons for women do not give proper attention to their reproductive health; mainly, in a private clinic. While pre-abortion and post-abortion facilities also hindered women from seeking services in public and private healthcare centres. One of the women said:
“I took abortion service from the public ‘community health centre’ but due to the unavailability of a senior doctor, the trainer did my abortion procedure without proper counselling and injected wrongly. [...] Due to their lack of practice, I suffered from a severe health problem, and it took six months to recover. (In-depth Interview, Chandwak Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 24)
Another woman who had faced a negative experience in public health centre said:
“After the abortion, they [providers] sterilised me without consulted and counsel. [...] My husband and in-laws always taunt me for my sterilisation.” (Focus Group Discussion, Hariharpur Village, Uttar Pradesh, India, age 30)
The majority of women in this study emphasised to use of abortion medicine from the chemist and also recommends others. Unawareness about contraceptive methods, unfavourable follow-up treatments, misconception about facility providers, fear of judgement and social stigma played a very crucial role while women seek abortion services from different facility centres.