Participant characteristics
The age of the participants ranged from 16 – 19 years and nine of the 14 participants were males (Table 1). All 14 study participants had acquired HIV perinatally. Six of the fourteen study participants had mothers who were still alive and only three had fathers who were present in their lives. One participant had never met his father but had spoken to him on the phone. (Table 1 should be inserted here.)
Thematic Overview
Adolescents who participated in this study recalled three periods of time in terms of their HIV status and ART. From the age of birth until 11 years, they reported that they relied on their caregivers to manage their ART. In the period between 12 and 14 years, they reported experiencing disclosure of their HIV status to them and found that their reaction to this disclosure coloured their ART choices. In the period between 15-19 years, they experimented with not taking ART to determine whether they really needed the medication or not and their adherence was affected by their experience of ART and its side effects.
One participant described his HIV treatment journey in the following way:
‘I didn’t know that I had HIV. I wasn’t taking any treatment. When I was 5/6 years old my mother got to the hospital and died. At home, I was told that I must go to the hospital to do blood tests. When I got there, I was also diagnosed with HIV’……..’I used to feel tired a lot at school, but they were not telling me what the pills I was taking were for’……’It was my mother’s death on the one hand and the pills on the other, it was a lot and eventually I stopped taking the pills and I started getting sick. I went to hospital and it was decided that I had to be told what the pills were for, I was 16 at that time. I was then told what the pills are for. I accepted it and I took the pills.’
Another participant described his treatment journey and reason for adherence as follows:
‘My family didn’t tell me that I have HIV. I was taking it [ART] when I was very small, at 6 months old. My father told me when I was older I was HIV positive’…..’No. I was taking the pills but not every day, and so that resulted in me getting TB. So, I was admitted in hospital for almost 6 months at Albert Luthuli hospital.’
When asked if her ever thought of defaulting again, his response was:
‘No…because of what I saw in hospital, what I saw frightened me. People die in hospital.’
The data revealed four social domains which impacted adolescent adherence to ART due to their influence on adolescent perceptions of self. These domains were: 1) the household; 2) the school; 3) the larger community; and 4) the clinic. Experiences and relationships in each of these areas were internalized and processed by each adolescent as they negotiated their changing identity in the world. These domains combined with the adolescent’s own experiences and sense of self to either support engagement with HIV services (including ART) or acted as barriers to engagement. Each of these domains will be explored in more detail below, including the enablers and barriers they presented for adolescent adherence to ART.
Social Domain 1: The Household
The household in which the adolescent resided exerted important influences on his/her ability to engage in HIV care and adhere to ART. Multiple individuals within the household were reported to be significant, including parents, grandparents and siblings. These individuals could either support or challenge adherence.
The support of household/family members
When household members were positive about the adolescents’ engagement in care, this was reported to be a significant contributor to adherence to ART. As an example, one participant lost her mother at birth. She and her siblings live with their grandfather and their cousins, who also lost their mother to HIV. She shared a photo with the group (Figure 2) of her grandfather and described how he often reminded her to take her ART. (Insert Figure 2 here)
A number of participants whose mothers were still alive spoke of how their mother’s support enabled adherence. Not only did their mothers remind them to take their ART daily, but they also picked up their adolescents’ medication at the clinic, so that the adolescent did not have to miss school. One participant, whose mother was living with HIV acknowledged her support. However, he reported that his siblings who were HIV-negative were not supportive of either of them. He chose to identify with his mother, and this helped him to remain engaged with HIV care, as reported below:
‘ That is what confused me, and I asked myself, “Why me?”, but as time went by, I understood that perhaps I have this ability to empathize with my mother’s pain and there is no one I care for more than I care for my mother.’
Absent parents
A number of participants described the difficulties they experienced at home as barriers to adherence. This was particularly true of orphans or those with one or other absent parent who spoke of unsupportive home circumstances with little or no support, effective guidance, or supervision. As can be seen in Table 1, five of the seven participants had lost their mothers and only three knew their father. One of these three, although he has spoken to his father on the phone, had never met him. One participant had great difficulty at home with an abusive stepfather who was unaware that both his wife and stepson were HIV-positive and on treatment. He became depressed, wanted to sleep the whole time, did not attend school or take his ART. This improved when he went to live with this grandmother. He recounted how his stepfather had chased him away from the house saying:
‘….he always says to me that this house is not my home…..and then end up chasing me away….’
Most participants expressed anger and bewilderment as to why their mothers had not prevented them from getting HIV through vertical transmission. One participant, whose mother died from HIV when she was 5 years old said:
‘Sometimes I feel like my mother didn’t think of me. I don’t know why. I am the only one amongst my siblings who has it. I very much blame her. Even if I had a chance to ask her what happened, or even if she just had an opportunity to apologize to me…. because I believe that I need to speak with her about this, a lot.’
Linked to this was the disclosure of participants’ HIV status to them and when and how this was communicated. Most participants were started on ART as children, but their caregivers, fearful of the child’s indavertant disclosure of their HIV status and the stigma the child and household would face, only disclosed to the participants in their teenage years. Some participants who had been on ART as children stopped taking their medication regularly as they got older. One reported that when told by his mother that he had HIV, he was angry and stopped taking his treatment for a year.
Moving between different households
Not being at home, in their normal routine, eating their normal food with family who know they were on ART was also described as a barrier to care by some participants. One participant shared a photo of suitcases to illustrate travelling as a barrier to care (Figure 3). He described how when he stays with the paternal side of his family there is a lot of sweet food. This sweet food makes him nauseated which makes taking ART more difficult. In addition, travelling was at times the reason he missed his hospital appointments. (Insert Figure 3 here)
Lack of household openness in discussing HIV and ART
Many participants described the lack of openness about HIV and ART at a household level and how this was a barrier to retention in care as no-one in the household knew their HIV status or supported them on their treatment journey. Two participant’s whose siblings were not HIV-infected expressed bewilderment as to why they were infected with HIV and the other siblings not. However, as they had never talked or asked their mother about this, their knowledge and understanding of HIV transmission remained limited and did not inform the importance of adherence.
The economic status of the household
Fearful of disclosure most participants did not go to their local clinic and needed money to get to the hospital ART clinic for their monthly medication. For those from unsupportive or poor households, a lack of money impacted on their accessing the clinic and their medication and was a barrier to adherence.
Social Domain 2: The School
Adolescents who participated in the study reported spending most of their time in school, and thus the social domain of school had an impact on their ability to remain engaged in HIV care. Interactions with peers, interactions with teachers, the content of lessons, and missing school to attend clinic appointments were all important subthemes that emerged as potential enablers or barriers to adherence.
School content
One participant took photos of his school, his school pens and pencils and his mathematics book, as these encouraged him to keep taking his treatment (Figure 4):
‘This is a picture of my school because I go to school every day because I know what I want out of life and without school, I know my options are very limited.The next picture is a picture of my books and its only math books because that is my favorite subject.’
(Insert Figure 4 here)
A number of study participants described how difficult it is for them to negotiate discussions about HIV within the classroom and with fellow students, due to the judgemental attitudes of their class mates towards those who were HIV positive. One participant said that when HIV comes up in the classroom she just wants to go home. In relation to discussing HIV with his colleagues, one participant said:
‘It’s disheartening because you have the knowledge that whatever they are saying is not entirely true. But you don’t say as they will ask where you are getting so much information from. They will just conclude that you are taking HIV treatment.’
The fear of inadvertant disclosure, stigma and discrimination
For all participants, the fear of unintended disclosure of their HIV status at school and to people in the larger community was a major concern. This fear impacted their willingness to attend the clinic to collect their ART.
All participants described their anxiety about bumping into someone from school or someone they knew at the clinic. Three participants described bumping into a fellow pupil. One participant had a story prepared for when she encountered classmates at clinic and said she was visiting a sick child. Similarly, one described how he had a story prepared, and although he doesn’t have asthma, if anyone asks him why he is taking pills, he responds it is for his asthma. Another participant reported always going to the clinic with her grandmother so she was able to say she is accompanying her grandmother.
Fearful of stigma, rejection and gossip, two participants described the difficulties they experienced in ensuring no-one at school observed them taking their medication. One participant always packed his ART into a different container so that it couldn’t be recognised as ART and another participant reported:
‘No, they would not see me. I would take my water bottle to the tap and just turn my back against them and swallow the pills, they would not see me.’
Another participant described how since developing epilepsy during the Covid-pandemic, it was easier for him to take his ART:
‘It’s a lot easier now because I also take pills for epilepsy, so, when I take pills, everyone just thinks I am taking pills for epilepsy.’
ART clinic and missing class
One participant described that on the day he has to go the clinic to collect his medication he does not go to school as he cannot bear to explain why he is late. The next day he tells the teacher he was ill. In contrast, two other participants described how they get a letter from the clinic that they give to the teacher when they arrive late, so they never miss a days school due to a clinic visit.
One participant presented a photo of her and her class during the FGD, and described school as a barrier to care:
‘In my class we were a group of girls, so, I never wanted to miss out on anything in class. So, making it to my clinic appointments was very difficult because I would always postpone to the following Monday or Tuesday and I just end up missing my appointments like that.’
Relationships at school
One participant reported he was able to talk to his teacher, who was supportive of him, both as a person and as a person living with HIV. Another participant described a friend at school:
‘There is a friend of mine who also has this virus, at break we sit together and just chat about this virus. We go as far as asking each other how the other is coping and we share ideas on how to tackle it. We also talk about ways to protect ourselves from people finding out that we have this virus.’
However, as is reported in the section on relationships in the larger community below, many participants were unable to disclose their HIV status to their peers or discuss the challenges they encountered.
Social Domain 3: The larger community
Other important institutions that promoted or detracted from adolescent engagement in HIV care were part of the larger communities in which they operated, including church, sports groups, peers/friends, and community events/rites of passage.
Relationships
All participants reported that their individual relationships and embarking on more intimate relationships with significant others were affected by their fear of inadvertant disclosure of their HIV status. They acknowledged the pain associated with this. Fearful of rejection and gossip, a couple of participants who were involved in intimate relationships, had not disclosed their HIV status to their partners. One participant took a photo of cartoon characters (Figure 5) and described his rationale for taking the photo as follows:
‘That’s my picture, it means that I like being indoors and watching cartoons. I don’t go out
much.’
(Insert Figure 5 here)
One participant took a photo of his friends. The day he took the photo, he was walking around the neighbourhood when they came across a mobile HIV testing van. They all decided to get tested, but he refused:
‘Yah, it’s painful to live with this virus. ……..I just ducked away, and I told them that I am not getting tested and that was my final word.’
He went on to say that he has not told his friends about his status:
‘Eyy, people talk too much, you can’t trust people. I don’t want them to know.’….. ‘I have friends who talk a lot, they talk too much. Sometimes when the topic about dating people with HIV arises, I always pretend as if I don’t have this virus.’…. ‘I don’t want people finding out that I have this virus.’
Responding to the question as to why participants did not want to share their HIV status with their friends, another participant said:
‘It’s because it’s not easy to tell people that you have HIV, because as he said, when you have a fall out with someone, they may go around telling people that you have HIV.People will then startdistancing themselves from you because of the belief that you will transmit the virus to them.’
All the participants agreed with this sentiment. One respondent added that his friends would only find out about his HIV status when he was dead and one participant stated that he would trust nobody with his HIV status except ‘his family, his bloodline.’
Rites of passage
In South Africa, medical male circumcision has been promoted as an HIV prevention strategy. For those who are HIV infected, circumcision is only performed on the recommendation of an HIV clinician after an individual’s health status is assessed and the CD4 count > 350mmol/L.(27) One participant had not been circumcised as he was informed at his clinic that HIV-infected males were not circumcised. Fearful of disclosure, this caused him some anxiety:
‘There is a time when as a male, when you need to urinate, there is a saying amongst males that a man doesn’t urinate by himself. So, they ask why you aren’t circumcised, and you have to start creating a lie because you can’t just blurt out that it’s because you have HIV.’
Participation in sport
A number of participants described their involvement in sport as an enabler of adherence. The male participants all spoke about soccer and one female participant described her involvement in netball as an enabler. On participant shared a photograph (Figure 6) of him and other members of his soccer team ‘The Xulu Boys’ saying:
‘The reason why I took a picture of a football is because I am at my happiest if I am playing football. If I am playing football, I forget that I have this virus.’
(Insert Figure 6 here)
Social Domain 4: The Clinic
The fourth social domain that had an impact on adolescent adherence was the clinic. Relationships and interactions with people in the clinic—including doctors, nurses, and social workers—were all reported as either helping or challenging adherence—often moderated through what participants perceived and described as “respect”. Physical and logistical aspects, such as the distance to the clinic and operating hours, were also reported as facilitators or barriers to adherence.
Health care providers
In the first FGD all participants who mentioned the clinic mentioned the care and support they received there. One participant spoke about the positive role social workers played, both in supporting her treatment journey, but also in supporting her as she struggled with her life’s issues. The quote below relates to their support for her treatment journey:
‘…it’s not that I love them but the social workers here at the clinic and the counselling they provide here has been very helpful, I don’t want to lie. They are very kind; they are very nice, and they don’t shout at you. They ask what problem you have, and you tell them. They have thousands of ways in which they can assist you in and you just choose one that will work best for you. They are very friendly. You know when the doctor says I need counselling, I get very excited because I know that I will speak freely with them and they will try to assist me as best as they can without arguing with me.’
A number of other respondants also spoke positively about social worker support and encouragement to take their ART more regularly:
‘I spoke to the social worker not because of any bad occurrences, it was because the social worker wanted to commend me for taking my treatment properly and that my medical charts showed that I am adhering to treatment.’
Another participant described how the doctor and nurse had shouted at him, but admitted they had reason to shout at him, as he had not been taking his treatment.
Knowledge and information about HIV and ART
In the second FGD a number of the participants felt that they had insufficient information about HIV and ART, and staff at the clinic were too busy to take the time to educate them. After responding to a number of HIV related questions in the FGD the researcher facilitating the FGD responded:
Researcher: ‘You guys have made me start a class, maybe I should start teaching you all on Saturdays.’
Participant: ‘Maybe that’s going to help because the nurses at the clinic don’t have time.’
Participant: ‘Plus, I have lots of questions.’
Participant: ‘There should be a nurse who is going to come here every Saturday and teach us….and answer our questions.’
Participant: ‘That’s difficult because the clinics are always full, and you will feel like you are taking too much time if you start asking questions about this and that…’
Participant: ‘They really don’t have time at the clinic…’
Participant: ‘They are always busy’.
One participant went on to say:
‘It’s this thing of not getting adequate information about what the pills are for, so I would only take them when it suited me.’
Adolescent Experiences and Sense of Self
All the domains described above exerted an influence on adolescent engagement in HIV care. So, too, did aspects of the adolescents’ own experiences and identities, including perceptions of self, illness experiences (including HIV and non-HIV illnesses), knowledge base, side effects from ART, disclosure, substance use, hopes for the future, and socioeconomic stressors. Although these experiences were felt by the adolescent him/herself, they were often interpreted through the social domains described above. Each of these are described in more detail as well as the ways they contributed to or detracted from adherence to ART and engagement in care.
Knowledge and understanding of HIV and ART
Knowledge and understanding of HIV and ART facilitated adherence. Conversly, limited understanding and knowledge of HIV and ART undermined adherence. One participant took a screenshot of Google (Figure 7) and said:
‘If I could explain about Google, I can say that in our communities where we live, most people have wrong information about HIV. I don’t know if they twist the information or I don’t know, but the information that they have is different from the information that we have. Personally, I have used Google a lot to do my own research about this virus throughout my journey of living with it because some questions I felt like I couldn’t ask people so I would just look it up on Google.’
(Insert Figure 7 here)
Experiencing the benefits of ART
Four participants described how their health improved after they restarted ART. Three participants had been very ill and were hospitalised, but their experience of the positive effects of ART led to improved levels of adherence. One of these four was hospitalised with his mother and although he recovered, she died of HIV in the hospital. The third participant experienced a significant improvement in her health after restarting ART, which also led to improved levels of adherence. The need to adhere to treatment was reinforced by the fear of becoming ill again and the fear of death. One participant described how during a period of poor adherence, he developed TB meningitis and spent six months in hospital. When asked if he would take his pills in the future he responded:
‘Absolutely, because of what I saw in hospital. What I saw frightened me. People die in hospital.’
A couple of participants described experimenting with not taking their ART to find out if it was necessary for them to keep taking their medication. One participant reported:
‘Yes, I wanted to confirm if I am not taking these pills for the sake of taking them. Maybe I have been cured.’
The side effects of ART
A number of participants took photos of their ART pills and described both ingesting and the side effects of ART as barriers to optimal retention in care. One participant described his diffculty in taking the pills saying:
‘They are so big, if I take the pills I vomit.’
Others described breaking the pills in two or crushing them and drinking them with warm water to facilitate ingestion, but these strategies did not really help. However, even more significant than the difficulty in ingesting the pills were the side effects they all experienced. One participant reported:
‘I don’t take my pills, if I take the pills, they make me feel weak. They also affect my moods, I get agitated very easily. I try to avoid taking the pills……‘When I take these pills before I go to school in the mornings, I get to school tired, sometimes I suddenly just get sick. I get sick even at home, the pills make me tired and they make me want to sleep. If its hot, the pills make me nauseous.’
‘I sometimes do take my pills before I go to school and they make me feel sleepy. I get extremely fatigued when the teacher comes in the classroom during the first period.’
Another participant described himself as a quiet person, but that ART affected his moods:
‘Sometimes taking these pills make me aggressive and I feel like I could hit someone if I have taken them. They make me short-tempered. The pills affect my moods and I’m generally a very quiet person.’
A further two participants experienced nauseau as a result of ART:
‘Yes, the pills also make me nauseous but before I take them, I make sure that I eat first so that I don’t experience the nausea. If I take the pills without eating, it always seems as though I will throw up. But if I eat before taking them, nothing happens. I just go to school and feel fine.’
“I don’t want to lie I wasn’t taking my treatment. I wasn’t taking my pills because they made me feel exhausted, I would also get nauseous as a result I would lose my appetite.’