Three themes were identified in this study: traumatic experiences, rooted in family, and recovery impetus, comprising nine sub-themes (Table 2), each supported by quotes from participants' records.
Table 2
Theme | Subtheme | Participant contribution |
A | B | C | D | E | F | G | H | I | J | K |
Traumatic experiences | Symptom- induced distress | | x | x | x | x | x | x | x | x | x | |
Stigma and self-stigma | x | x | | x | x | x | | | x | x | x |
Loss of hope, feeling of powerlessness | x | x | x | x | x | x | | x | x | x | x |
Rooted in family | Discrimination, blame from family members -- anger, depression | x | | | x | x | | | | | | |
Family concerns -- fear, depression | | x | x | | | | | | | | x |
Family communication, encouragement -- increased interaction and mutual concern | | | | | x | | x | x | x | x | |
Influence on medication | x | x | | | x | | | | | x | x |
The push for recovery | For the family | | | | | | x | | | x | x | |
Relying on oneself | | | | | | x | | x | x | x | |
Traumatic experiences
Each patient referred to the traumatic experience of having schizophrenia, which included symptom-induced distress, stigma, and feelings of powerlessness.
Symptom-induced distress
These include both bodily and psychological distress. Even after the patient's symptoms are controlled, the pain remains fresh in the patient's mind. The pain experience may be why the patient persists in treatment or is willing to seek help from a doctor.
"It is so unbearable, worse than death, and people who have never had the disease cannot feel the pain. The onset of the disease is too painful, too torturous. It's all about the physical discomfort and the pain. The pain in my body is so bad that I can get sick at any time, my chest and back feel like a nail is stuck there, my hands and feet are numb, and it is particularly uncomfortable. "(G)
"It (referring to the symptoms) is not cyclical. It suddenly comes and goes, but wait a bit. The key is not to be anxious; once it happens, your thoughts will not work if you are anxious. You don't think about anything. I don't want to think about anything. "(F)
"It's just hard, hard. I can't stop thinking about problems. I can't control them. I don't want to think about problems. My mind will still think about them. I want to clear my mind, but there are voices in my head that keep talking. It's hard. I can't help it. I can't think about extreme problems, but my head gets dizzy when I think about unnecessary problems." (C)
"Couldn't sleep the next day. My mental state was terrible, and my condition was worse. "(B)
Stigma and self-stigma
Some patients report being talked about, being shunned, isolated, and devalued. And they feel lonely, devalued, restricted, and angry. Some patients said they felt low self-esteem because of mental illness, felt pessimistic about the future, avoided contact with the outside world, or feared that others would know about their disease.
"I walk out. People point at me and murmur: she is the wife of whoever, she is the daughter of whoever. And she is a mental illness. It's like I'm boxed inside that dungeon." "I found that everyone ignored me when I returned from the hospital. They don't care about me. They teach the children to ignore me. En, I'm so lonely and isolated there. No one wants to care about me." (A)
"The psychological impact of the illness, maybe, is inferiority and a little pessimistic about the future. The inferiority complex means that people with the disease are often looked down upon by others. A person is often looked down upon by others. His life is over. Pessimism means that you feel very pessimistic about your future." (B)
"We, as patients, are also stigmatized in society. I was afraid to tell anyone about my illness. But it affected me all my life. Right? I can't even talk about it. Maybe someday I'll meet someone I love. I can't even talk about it. Friends, I lost a lot of friends that I used to play with, and I reached out to them, and they didn't talk to me. "(J)
Loss of hope, feeling of powerlessness.
Most patients describe a loss of hope and powerlessness, while others feel scared. Some people have this feeling for a period of time after the illness, and some are in this feeling all the time. This feeling is related to being diagnosed with schizophrenia, being on medication for a long time, or having recurrent disease episodes.
"After I found out my diagnosis was schizophrenia, I felt like I just lost hope in life, I didn't want to care about anything, I didn't want to do anything" (F)
"It felt scary, saying something about (the diagnosis of) schizophrenia, it just felt quite scary and could scare people to death. ...... When does the second life start? The first life was given to me by my mother, I feel like there is no second life, and I feel like a wasted person when I keep taking medication and eating." (L)
"When I got out of the hospital, my ability of survival was poor. I was weak. When I heard the doorbell, I was scared.." (J)
"It just wasn't good, I didn't feel so lucky. Quite a lot of my classmates that I hang out with don't have it, and I'm the only one who has it." (C)
"A bit pessimistic about the future, I guess ...... pessimistic means feeling very pessimistic and disappointed about the future." "My parents are old, 50 or 60 years old. If they die, how do I do." "Schizophrenia, well, can't be cured completely, mentally very tortured." (B)
Rooted in family
Most of the interviewees lived with their families. Among the three patients (D, E, and I) who did not live with their families, 2 (E and I) also had close contact with their families. Only patient D stated that he rarely communicated with his family. All patients had a permanent home and no experience of homelessness. Family members frequently interacted with the patients, and interactions with family members significantly impacted the patients' mood and behavior. Family members' attitudes and behavior towards patients' medication also significantly impacted patients' treatment and mood.
Discrimination, blame from family members - anger, depression
The patient experiences impatience, unconcern, and blame from family members, for which the patient feels angry and depressed.
"My husband, if people ask him who she (meaning the patient) is. His attitude then becomes like this, too, just saying to ignore her and not to talk to her. I once tried cross-stitching, which requires a lot of patience. I was halfway through the embroidery when my husband said, "What are you embroidering? You can't even do your housework properly and still embroider this. He denied me. What housework did I fail to do? Did I not cook, did I not take care of my children, did I not take care of my mother-in-law? "(In an outraged tone) (A)
"The children don't come to see me either, and I'm particularly depressed and bitter emotionally" (D)
"My parents pick on my sore spot and talk nonsense. En, all this talk is making me feel bad. "(E)
Family concerns - fear, depression
Patients experience a variety of worries from family members, such as family members worrying about the patient's condition, the side effects of medication, the patient's relationships, and the patient's future. Family members' worries about the patient can add to the patient's fears.
"As long as I have this symptom, I can't do anything. My parents are worried and afraid that my interpersonal relationship outside is shallow. If I want to do something, I need a person to lead me to do it. My parents don't have anyone right now." (C)
"My mother was disappointed in me. She said I would become a farmer like them if I were still so negative. I'm a little worried myself. En, I swallowed the whole bottle of pills. A bottle of clozapine." (K)
Family communication, encouragement - increased interaction and mutual concern
Patients experience that their family members are willing to listen to what is bothering them, feel that family members care about them, or feel that family members are encouraging them and affirming the positive changes they are making. These listening, caring, and support of family members make patients willing to talk and care more about their family members.
"My parents also say that I'm a different person. They all think I'm good. I'm good to them. (J)
"I talk to her (referring to the daughter) a little bit, a little bit (about the condition), sometimes she opens up and tells me to, um, learn to control myself, and she also, she asks me to, but I can't do it, I told her that too, I said I can't do it." (D)
"My daughter lives where she work, and she's very concerned about me and often calls me. After all, I was worried about her being a girl, but I have since discovered that she is capable, so I am relieved now." (I)
Influence on medication
Family members have an important influence on patients about medication. Family members will remind patients to take their medication. Some family members accompany the patient to hospital appointments and prescriptions, and the patient feels supported. However, some family members make taking medication an essential thing for the patient, constantly reminding the patient and equating failure to take the medication with the onset of the patient's illness. Other family members force-feed medicines to the patient, and these coercive methods make the patient unhappy and resentful. Some family members are also concerned about the side effects of the medication and ask the patient to stop taking it.
"I was then always very positive and cooperative in my treatment. At first, it was my 70-year-old father who brought me to the doctor, and then later, I slowly came to the doctor on my own." (J)
"My family always asked me if I had eaten or taken my medication. I had to remember to take my medicine and not to forget to do so. These were just a few words. I felt like I had accomplished a considerable task." (A)
"My mother was afraid I would get sick from my medicine, so she told me not to take it." (B)
"Whenever I get angry and don't take my medicine, my parents think I will be sick." (L)
They (referring to parents) would take a scoop, open my mouth with the scoop, and ask me to take my medicine, and I also felt disgusted. (E)
The push for recovery
Patients want to get better, but taking the initiative to take steps to start getting better, rather than avoiding people and situations that make it difficult for them, requires a driving force. The patient's narrative reveals that being for family and relying on oneself are the motivating factors for increasing patient initiative.
For the family
Patients take responsibility for their families and want to be able to take care of them, such as their elderly parents, younger siblings, and children, to "take on the burden of the family" and to provide financial and emotional care for them. Patients interpreted the improvement of their situation as a way of not "causing trouble" for their families. "easing the burden" for them, and taking responsibility for them.
"My father is dead too,...... My mother is old, and I have two younger sisters, so I have to bear the burden of my family." "If I lose touch with society and drag my family down with me, at the end of the day, it's all; it's all hurting myself, it's all hurting my family." (F).
"My mum and dad are very old and emaciated ....... I want to lighten the burden on my family" "My mum and dad are physically ill. I think this burden I have to pick up. Then I went out to work again, and I forced myself when I was working. Slowly I was able to do the job." "Now I can take part of the responsibility of the family, and I also care for my sister, my brother-in-law, my niece, my dad, and my mum." (J).
"I hope not to give my daughter any trouble. When she needs money, I can help her. The first is not to be hospitalized. I want my life to be about taking medicine, eating, closing my eyes, and not being hospitalized again. When I was in the hospital, those who cared about me, including my parents and my daughter, were affected. I was also sick and had much pain."(I)
Relying on oneself
Four patients referred to 'relying on oneself', which includes relying on oneself to manage life's chores, regulate one's emotions, take care of oneself and encourage oneself. Relying on oneself is also an expression of taking responsibility for one's life and supporting oneself.
"The reality is that you still have to rely on yourself, you have to do a lot of tedious things in real life by yourself, you can't be a little bit lazy, it's like taking care of yourself, if you are a little bit lazy, you will end up not wanting to do it more and more." "If you don't make any progress at all, if you're not willing to go in a good direction and improve yourself, then the doctor can't do anything with you, and the medicine can't do anything with you." (I)
"You have to unlock the locks yourself, but if your heart is locked, you can't open it," "You have to rely on yourself, you have to rely on yourself." (F)
"We ordinary people, we have to rely on ourselves, ...... can't give up on ourselves." (G)
" Now it's about being strong on your own. Keep yourself in an optimistic frame of mind and look down on some things a little bit." (H)