Three women and five men with various diagnoses, illness severity, age, and stages in care gave interviews about their experiences of quality in healthcare pathways including transitions across different settings. Overall, the participants were in a state of powerlessness against illness and in a need for kindness and flexibility when they approached the healthcare system. Their experience of care quality is embedded in this. In the following, this will be unfolded in a description of the three themes identified: “Being powerless in the face of illness,” “Burdensome access and navigation,” and “Being in need of mercy and striving for kindness.”
Being powerless in the face of illness
Based on the data, it was identified that participants sought help in the health care system because their ability to function was impaired or threatened, and they lacked the power or resources to help themselves. This was shown when the participants initiated the interview with a disclosure of how or what they were suffering from. Hence, reasons for contacting the healthcare system were based on needing help to manage illness and alleviate symptoms. The participants explained that they had attempted to help themselves or awaited spontaneous alleviation without success. Participants described being out of control with their ill health and needing help from healthcare services to regain the power to manage their everyday lives and cope with illness. The participants expressed this in their narrations of how their illness reduced their ability to take part in meaningful activities such as work, leisure activities, and taking care of depending others. For the most critically ill participants, fear of death was their primary concern.
Participants experienced accentuated powerlessness when their needs were not met in the healthcare system. One man suffering from hallucinations during psychosis explained in these words:
INF 5: Well, I go to the district psychiatry every third week, but it is kind of too long for me to be able… it’s as if it sort of crumbles along the way. […] The problem is that it becomes a bit like a garland. Where I kind of go down into depression and start having some psychotic experiences. It is clear that the treatment helps me get back up again, but when the visits are so far apart, I sink pretty low […]. I drop so low that I start having thoughts about suicide and stuff like that.
The material disclosed how the participants’ experiences of losing control over their illness were exacerbated by the experience of inflexibility in the provision of healthcare services and how this was perceived as poor quality of care. Inflexibility was illustrated by stories of rigid schemas for care that led to expressions of exhaustion, pain, anxiety, and frustration while waiting for care, being transported long distances for care, or being offered a care regime that did not meet the participants’ perceived needs. The participants described feeling powerless towards such rigid schemas and that powerlessness manifested in an experience of being objectified. In objectification, the participants sensed a lack of recognition of their worth as human beings. When the participants’ needs for help were unmet, they were left helpless to suffer alone.
Burdensome access and navigation
In the participants’ disclosures, experiences of navigating healthcare services were about difficulties in gaining access to care. The participants described this as confusing and stressful. The confusion started when they tried to figure out whom to contact and when to gain access to the help they needed. The more courses of care they had and the more actors involved, the more confusing access to care became. Accessing care became even more challenging when the participants’ needs for help appeared suddenly and out of hours, primarily because of a feeling of not fitting in with healthcare service schedules and time slots. Not being able to conform to healthcare time slots made participants circumvent access routes. In this way, they eventually gained access, but the path through the gate had been one of significant energy expenditure and stress. An example of how the participants circumvented access routes was by using emergency contact although they knew they were not in an emergency, or by using their personal network to access care.
Gaining access to referrals from the General Practitioner was also experienced as confusing. This scenario was depicted as an experience of being a parcel expedited by one doctor onto the next, which caused a sense of being at risk of stranding in no man’s land. Being in such no-man’s land between referral and accessing care was related to insecurity and unpredictability for participants. This shows how obscurity in referrals made the participants unsure whether they would get the help they needed and unable to predict what would come next. Moreover, participants feared being rejected when they tried to get help, and they had concerns about not being taken seriously by the healthcare professionals. The risk of rejection and not being taken seriously was experienced as a lack of acknowledgment that accentuated powerlessness.
After gaining access to care, participants experienced even more challenges in navigating in several cases. A participant with multimorbidity who was admitted to the emergency unit gave an example:
INF 1: […] I have my entire calendar booked out with hospital visits, so they will have to discharge me so that I can keep the appointments I’m booked for. I struggle to convey that message to them or to get an answer to how far they have come. […] It feels unsafe. I am the one who has to keep track of all those appointments. And it’s been that way through the whole course of my illness, right from when it started. I am the one who has to be the project manager for my illness.
The data covers how the participants mainly experienced being left alone with the burden of navigation. Communication flow and coordination between providers were not transparent to the participants. This led to experiences of disrupted and incoherent care in a problematic and inflexible setup that forced participants to be in charge of their care by keeping track of appointments and following up on test results because no one else seemed to be. The perception of trying to navigate a tricky path without a compass or a map was experienced as burdensome and lonely.
In sum, the participants painted a picture of overall burdensome navigation in what they perceived as an uncoordinated, inflexible healthcare system, which had the power to abandon them outside the gates – or let them in but not help them. This impacted the perceived care quality negatively.
Being in need of mercy and striving for kindness
The participants disclosed how they relied heavily on the kindness of the healthcare professionals. In cases where healthcare professionals took upon them the responsibility to help the participants compassionately, they felt a burden lifted from their shoulders. The following quote describes the relief the participants felt:
INF 7: It was great, such a relief. […] I felt happy after she had been here, even though we agreed I should stop breastfeeding. It was lovely, even though it was actually pretty sad. She was just so smiley and listening and acknowledging. […] She didn’t just weigh him and calculate how much formula he needed. She listened to me and answered the questions I had.
They experienced being cared for when their needs were met and their suffering was acknowledged. Individual needs being met was illustrated as healthcare professionals adjusting guidelines or bending rules to compensate for the participants’ lack of strength or needs for emotional support from family; that is, according to the participants, acts of kindness. Also, kindness was experienced when healthcare professionals made eye contact, took time to listen, or supported participants’ struggles to cope with suffering. When met with kindness, participants felt less like a burden or an object and more like a respected person. Furthermore, they described regaining the power to help themselves when healthcare professionals facilitated participation and acknowledged their preferences. In this way, the participants were supported back to a position in life where they experienced being more in control, more able to function, and supported in their efforts to live meaningful lives.
The participants’ physical impairments varied, and for those who were most critically ill, caring for their basic functional requirements were imminently significant to their experience of quality. This woman, who had undergone major surgery and was in chemo- and radiation therapy, gave an example of how meaningful the simple act of providing a comfortable chair could be:
INF 4: I was SO tired. They planted me in a chair, and I just fell asleep sitting in that chair. […] I have slept in so many waiting rooms simply because I was exhausted. […] So, if I didn’t have to go to all the different hospitals all the time, it would have meant that I could rest, and then I might have had a bit more strength to recover. Maybe I could have better managed it all. If only they had come and said – look, you can have this chair because you can hardly stand on your feet, right?
This demonstrates that some individuals were barely surviving, struggling to eat, and finding it challenging to take even a few steps. During such times, having a comfortable chair to rest in while waiting at the hospital became the epitome of mercy and excellence in providing care with quality. Participants longed for kindness, through someone to acknowledge and care for their situation, help them compensate, and gain alleviation when they were powerless in the face of illness.