The study participants included doctors (3), nurses (9), physiotherapists (3), and caregivers (6) who cared for patients diagnosed with COVID-19 during the pandemic. The participants’ ages ranged from 23 to 59 years, with 76% being female, and 57%, 38% and 5% were single, married, and divorced, respectively (Table 1). More than half of the participants (52%) reported contracting COVID-19 while caring for infected patients, but only 10% of the participants sought professional mental health help (Table 1).
Table 1
Participants’ demographic profile
# | Gender | Age in years | Occupation | Marital status | Contracted COVID while caring | Sought professional mental health help | Years of working experiences |
1 | female | 24 | caregiver | single | yes | no | 3 |
2 | female | 35 | caregiver | single | yes | no | 5 |
3 | female | 40 | caregiver | married | yes | no | 10 |
4 | female | 36 | caregiver | married | no | no | 5 |
5 | female | 39 | caregiver | single | yes | no | 7 |
6 | female | 59 | enrolled nurse | married | no | no | 35 |
7 | female | 56 | registered nurse | married | yes | no | 30 |
8 | female | 23 | caregiver | single | no | no | 3 |
9 | female | 54 | registered nurse | single | yes | no | 31 |
10 | female | 45 | registered nurse | married | yes | no | 17 |
11 | female | 28 | enrolled nurse | single | yes | no | 3 |
12 | male | 29 | registered nurse | single | yes | yes | 4 |
13 | male | 48 | doctor | married | no | no | 20 |
14 | female | 36 | doctor | married | yes | yes | 8 |
15 | female | 26 | registered nurse | single | no | no | 2 |
16 | male | 36 | physiotherapist | married | no | no | 8 |
17 | male | 26 | physiotherapist | single | no | no | 3 |
18 | female | 38 | physiotherapist | divorce | no | no | 15 |
19 | female | 27 | registered nurse | single | no | no | 4 |
20 | female | 26 | registered nurse | single | no | no | 3 |
21 | male | 35 | doctor | single | yes | no | 7 |
The data analysis produced five main themes and twelve subthemes (Table 2).
Table 2
Themes and subthemes from the data analysis
Themes | Sub-themes |
Nature of participants’ COVID-19 experiences | Negative experiences |
Positive experiences |
Triggers of Mental health challenges | Psychological distress |
Work-related psychosocial factors |
Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PSTD) symptoms |
Moral distress |
Stress responses | |
Coping strategies | Building and nurturing resilience |
Fulfilment of career obligation |
Maladaptive coping response |
Deterrents to mental health-seeking | Stigma and fear of breach of confidentiality |
Prioritising patient-care over self-care and ignorance |
Participants’ unawareness of mental health services |
Nature of Participants’ COVID-19 experiences
There were mixed views on how participants experienced the COVID-19 pandemic, some experiences were negative, but others were positive.
Negative experiences
Participants described their experiences as unusual and new. The newness of their experiences created a sense of uncertainty about what to expect, with widespread conflicting information and conspiracies worsening the situation. Misinformation particularly pushed health workers to a state of helplessness, hopelessness, and sadness.
“It [the COVID-19 pandemic] was new, and we were overwhelmed, uncertain whether the medication would work…you will do everything you need to do according to the published guidelines, but the patient will still pass away.”Participant #14
“The misinformation created fear, panic, a wrong mindset, and negativity. There was no encouragement.” Participant #2
Nevertheless, despite all the devastations, some positive experiences came out of the deadly COVID-19 pandemic.
Positive experiences
Despite the pandemic’s hardship, participants highlighted a sense of fulfilment that came with saving lives, which they viewed as a reward for their effort and commitment.
“There was a reward we were getting from helping patients, seeing the patient recover and seeing the role we were doing. Physiotherapists played an active role in this COVID-19 outbreak, …and feeling you were making a difference.” Participant #17
It was during the pandemic that health workers found meaning in their work and were imbued with professional confidence and competency for professional growth. They also gained new knowledge and skills, thereby encouraging them to pursue career development for future pandemics.
“Nursing is my calling, so if you went through what was going on, you would want to do more, you would want to know more, you would like to save more lives; so, this was also the reason I applied for nursing, I am currently studying, so I can provide more service.” Participant #8
Apart from these experiences, COVID-19 also triggered a number of mental health problems among health workers.
Triggers of Mental health challenges
Health workers reported a number of triggers of mental health challenges arising from caring for patients with COVID-19.
Psychological distress
The sharp increase in the number of COVID-19 related deaths triggered psychological distress, which induced fear and anxiety among COVID-19 designated health workers. This was exacerbated by the fact that more than half of the participants were infected with COVID-19 while caring for the patients.
“I got it [COVID-19] from the patient. I was caring for a COVID-19 patient. I could not even talk; I was having shortness of breath. So, the COVID-19 among the staff started with me, then other staff started to get sick from there.” Participant #3
“I was anxious when I knew I was going to the COVID ward, so I did not look forward to it. I can’t say I lost sleep, but there was that anxiety I carried within my mind.” Participant #16
During the delta wave, high mortality resulted in dead bodies being kept inwards for longer than usual, and this adversely affected health workers psychologically.
“Even though I have seen people dying, I have never seen people dying in a number the way people were dying from COVID-19. It was not only the patients we cared for dying but also family members. Aaah! It is sad.” Participant #10
“Lifeless body we kept from the morning till evening, the mortuary was full, there was no space. It was a trauma for me to see those lifeless bodies there. You feel like the value of life was useless, and some patients could not say bye to their loved ones.” Participant #4
All participants agreed that PPE discomfort, supply and inadequate resources also increased the risk of psychological distress. Strangely, the shortage of PPEs equally caused psychological distress. Participants perceived PPE as stressful to use, with some stresses coming from the logistical and physical steps required. For example, PPEs were hot, and doubling masks made them suffocate. Donning and doffing for full PPE was also time-consuming. Participants also reported shortages of other supplies, including oxygen and ventilator machines, leading to health workers making difficult decisions on whose life to prioritise and save. All these issues were psychologically distressing.
“We worked long shifts, and you are wearing this PPE; it is hot there. You are sweating the whole day and holding your urine. Imagine! You are even struggling to breathe yourself.” Participant #17
“There were times when there was no PPE, and then we had to use the minimal amount we could use. There are days you have full PPE, and there are days you don’t have all that. You have the face mask and apron. Then, you ask yourself, ‘Am I exposing myself?’. Thank God, I did not get infected.” Participant #21
The unpreparedness of the health system to handle the COVID-19 pandemic was also distressing for health workers. Participants asserted that even the training they received hardly matched the reality on the ground.
“The unpreparedness was a challenge but is what is expected in any outbreak. It created total stress for everyone and the uncertainty of not knowing if you will be the next patient. Facilities were not totally prepared; there was a time we ran out of oxygen in the hospitals.” Participant #9
Participants also reported that they were dissatisfied with daily COVID-19 screening tests, citing that uncomfortable and painful mandatory nasopharyngeal swabbing was psychologically traumatising.
“Had to be tested every day at work. That was a trauma for me. It comes to the point of asking God to test positive so I do not have to be swabbed every day. We were understaffed. Most of our colleagues tested positive, so we had to work seven days a week.” Participant #4
Work-related psychosocial factors
Designation to the COVID-19 ward also induced other psychosocial distresses. This distress arose from stigma, loneliness, and discrimination. However, stigma did not only come from other people, this workforce also experienced self-stigma, as they anticipated other people to keep a distance once they learned that they worked in COVID-19 wards.
“At functions, you have to keep your distance because you were not sure should anything happen; it will be pointed at you that work at the hospital in the COVID ward because people understand was like,’ I am getting this from the hospital.” Participant #6
Others actually reported experiences of stigma from their own family members.
“I had challenges where you came home, and from the gate, people felt like you brought all the germs from the hospital. This made me feel angry and rejected because people were scared of me. I was staying behind the house, which made me feel more isolated.” Participant #3
Participants also felt that their hard work was not properly recognised and rewarded by employers, and this affected them psychosocially. Participants felt that they could have been appreciated for their hard work and effort in battling the pandemic.
“Most of the health workers felt like they were doing their best, but the management did not appreciate health workers. There is a point when you test positive; you have seven days to return to work. I understand there is a shortage, but there was also a lack of appreciation. We were pushed to do things, and we put effort, but they never appreciated.” Participant #21
The ministry or the government was supposed to acknowledge what health workers did, even a simple certificate to say thank you. It was never done.” Participant #13
COVID-19 destabilised work-life balance due to high work demands and working for longer hours than usual.
“It was very physically demanding. I had to put my master on hold because there was no time for it. Morning to evening, you are busy at work the whole day in the PPE; you cannot even scratch your nose. It was exhausting seeing COVID patients all day, every day, and having no time for something else, no time to exercise, no time to do other things. You are just seeing COVID patients every day, all day, that is it. For me, it was physically exhausting.” Participant #18
Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) symptoms
Apart from the physical exhaustion, COVID-19 exposed the health workers’ neglect of their psychological wellness, which ultimately culminated into the manifestation of posttraumatic stress disorder symptoms. Some participants reported experiences of flashback memories of those rooms where those patients and some even relatives died under their care.
“We were too busy, but after a year, I feel like that’s where I sort of started to process most of the impacts of the experience. Most of the time, you were just busy. However, afterwards, I experienced posttraumatic stress with inductive thoughts and definitely some sort of depression, and I was on medication for it as well and had to see a therapist to do some active work to process it.” Participant #14
“Talking about it now, it always brings back tears in my eyes, and it brings back the memories. It will take time for us to heal.” Participant #7
COVID-19 has had long-term effects on the health workers who care for infected patients, as eloquently illustrated by one participant (Medical Doctor).
“I love my job and medicine, but I must admit, after COVID-19, I hesitate to accept treating palliative or more seriously ill patients. I think I was traumatised.” Participant #14
Moral distress
Health workers in COVID-19 wards had to contend with constantly making morally difficult decisions, including making judgements on who to let go and who to save, given limited resources. Regrettably, these decisions led to feelings of guilt, shame, hopelessness, and self-blaming for patients’ deaths.
“I feel like I was failing the patients; my goal as a doctor was to save lives, and I was not achieving this goal.” Participant #13
Stress responses
There was a convergence of views among participants on how they responded to and adjusted to stressful work environments, while caring for patients with COVID-19. Their sleep patterns and eating habits changed, and so did emotions and physical adaptations to stressful pandemic situations.
“I had a problem sleeping. Every time I leave the hospital, I take the patients with me. Especially if I work the day shift, so at night when am sleeping I hear the sound of the machine, I am giving medication in my sleep, I cannot cut off from work.” Participant #10
“It was just terrible. It created fear in me, a lot of fear, and sleepless nights. I could not sleep at night and had thought of how patients died in my hand. I dream of seeing corpses lying around, and I could hear machine sounds in my sleep.” Participant #2
“Could not eat. I did not trust any shop food if it was not warm food from my pots. Even if it was my lunch pack that I had prepared at home, I could not eat at work. I feel it had COVID.” Participant #4
The pressure exerted by COVID-19 robbed health workers of the opportunity to process their emotional and mental trauma, let alone the neglect of their own sick family members and mourning for those who had demised.
“As health workers, we did not have time to grieve. We did not have time to heal mentally, physically, or emotionally. Yes, we were given days off for isolation when we tested positive, but when those days are over, you must come back to work. We never had time to process and heal. Your relatives were also dying, and people at work were dying. As a health worker, if I am COVID-19 positive, I must heal quickly and get back to work.” Participant #5
“We are spending the whole day in the COVID ward; when I get home, I am so tired, I keep thinking about my patients, I slept, I dream I am in the COVID ward’. Now I am like 24 − 7 hours in the COVID ward.” Participant #17
Coping strategies
The difficulties that health workers endured during COVID-19 also meant that they developed their own coping strategies for their survival.
Building and nurturing resilience
Participants found prayer to be an important instrument for building resilience. Other helpful tools were physical activities, self-care, and simply accepting that the pandemic was beyond their control.
“It [death by COVID-19] was everywhere. People were dying of COVID-19 everywhere, all of us. Therefore, I realised that I can only do what I can. You deal with the situation as it comes.” Participant #10
“For me, what helped me was to work out, do some exercise and stay fit.” Participant #17
“I steam, morning and night. I was also taking the booster and drinking lemon water.” Participant #15
With over half (52%) of the participants acquiring COVID-19 infection, social and emotional support in some instances coping abilities by the health workers stemmed from the support received from their families, patients’ families, the facility, some NGOs, and colleagues.
“I had support from family members. Some of our nannies went all the way and even made us fruit baskets. From the community in the morning, they will come to drop some soup. The support from outside was actually well.”Participant #9
“there were some NGOs and companies that supported us with food, chairs, and different devices. We appreciate that.” Participant #13
“The facility arranged for health workers to talk to someone to help them cope. This truly helped me a lot.” Participant #11
Apart from only 10% of the participants seeking professional mental health help, they all viewed mental health interventions as a priority during the pandemic.
Fulfilment of career obligation
Noting that saving lives was part of health workers’ responsibilities helped participants embrace and reframe a positive attitude about their work and COVID-19 conditions.
“We are health workers and took an oath for that. We are nurses, and we are supposed to care for these patients; we can die for these people. It was just a matter of doing the job required to do as ordered. Psychologically, you must be strong yourself.” Participant #15
Maladaptive coping responses
Some participants reported using alcohol and sleeping pills to induce sleep, as they found it difficult to stop thinking about work, even when they were at home.
“I started drinking beer to help me sleep. I will hear people crying, hospital machine sounds, and the phone ringing, so I kind of become an alcoholic. If I knock off, I will go drink one beer just to sleep.” Participant #1
Deterrents to mental health-seeking
Seeking mental health help is not easy, with the stigmatisation of these services being the main deterrent. Over-focus on patient care, and neglecting their own wellness were other important factors that affected the utilisation of mental health services by health workers. In some instances, health workers were not aware of the existence of mental health services in their facilities/ settings.
Stigma and fear of breach of confidentiality
The stigmatisation of mental health services by associating them with craziness remains an important barrier to their uptake.
“I think we shy away from it [mental health] and fear being labelled because of the stigma that is attached to mental health. When people hear you are going to see a psychologist, people will not think maybe it is just for counselling; they will be like, “Are you okay? What is going on? Are you mad? Such sort of things.” Participant #12
Participants also shared experiences of breach of confidentiality when seeking mental health help within their facilities. This deterred them from seeking mental health help.
“There is no confidentiality; you will hear your stories around or be told who was also here. I am talking about something that happened.” Participant #21
Prioritising patient-care over self-care and ignorance
Participants asserted that health workers did not only prioritise patient-care over self-care, but in some instances, they were ignorant.
“Someone must take care of the patients. If I am not doing it, who is going to do it? I know there is a shortage, and a job must be done.” Participant #21
“I think health workers are the most difficult ones to seek help because you are in the system; we do not think you are vulnerable to psychological issues or mental conditions. We don’t think we can be affected like other people.” Participant #13
Participants’ unawareness of mental health services
Participants asserted that they were unaware of the availability of mental health services in their facilities.
“Who do I call? Where do I go, too? I think mental service for health workers is also needed; we also go through things. I will go if I know where I can easily access a psychologist, not just for COVID-19….” Participant #5.
Despite the reported poor health workers’ awareness of mental health services, one participant had a different view.
“They [health facilities] were supported to have a support system for mental health care. So, we can talk, like how we are talking now, how I felt and how I feel now.” Participant #7