An overarching theme that emerged from the data was “A visible, lingering scar”. Many informants expressed how, after remission, the eating disorder continued to have an impact on their lives. This overarching theme consisted of three major themes: (1) Physical impact, (2) Psychological impact and (3) Impact on daily living (Table 2.).
The overarching theme
The overarching theme emerged, among others, from informant remarks such as the below.
I think about it (the eating disorder) all the time when I look at them (the teeth), and teeth are something you see all the time, so it becomes more noticeable than if it were something else that you can hide more… You've fought so hard to get well and when you're well… it (the teeth) becomes a reminder, and it would be very nice to avoid that reminder and be able to restore...to what you looked like before.
#3, 22 years
I'm 50 soon and it feels so unnecessary, so sad, that something that happened when I was young lives on in such a way that you can't really get free from it. Besides (the teeth), I'm perfectly healthy today, but this is what's left and then it's almost 30 years later. #8, 50 years
Table 2
Consequences of having experience of an eating disorder and poor oral health
Overarching theme | Major themes | Subthemes |
A visible, lingering scar | Physical impact | Orofacial pain Tooth breakdown Shortened teeth Impaired aesthetics Focus on teeth |
| Psychological impact | Stigma Shame Guilt Worry Anxiety Low self-esteem Disaster thinking |
| Impact on daily living | Avoidance of normal behaviors: Smiling Laughing Socializing Eating with others Difficulty meeting a partner Limited career choices |
Major theme 1: Physical impact
All participants described extensive experience with the physical impacts on oral health, such as severe breakdowns in tooth substance and dental restorations. They also reported consequences of these physical impacts, such as pain.
... I noticed that when I had eating disorders, they (the teeth) got weaker and weaker… I have very fragile teeth, with fractures of both teeth and restorations. As soon as I have bitten into a peach or eaten something I can get piece of a tooth in my mouth. It's very difficult to know that teeth can break anytime. #2, 49 years
They (the teeth) have been shortened, so the enamel is very thin, I have a hard time eating an apple. #3, 22 years
Participants reported severe pain connected with food intake and even during tooth brushing.
After the eating disorder, I noticed that it started to hurt a lot more when I ate ice-cream or if I drank hot tea. #4, 21 years
Some pain is very easy to repress, while other pain is very difficult to repress, and toothache, it has become like a matter of habit to me… #2, 49 years
The informants also expressed impaired esthetics due to shortened and fractured teeth, transparency of the teeth and yellow tooth color.
I don't think my smile is so nice anymore because I have short teeth. #4, 21 years
As for my teeth, I am very unhappy. I feel like I've ruined them, I absolutely don't like the way they look, the color, basically everything about the teeth.
#6, 32 years
I think they (the teeth) are very yellow and colored, ugly color, and everyone else is bleaching their teeth, but I have been told that I cannot do that… because they are too fragile. #2, 49 years
All these impairments, stated by the interviewed, are expressions of severe erosive tooth wear, causing loss of the enamel, exposure of the dentin and changes in the anatomy and color of the teeth due to lack of enamel. The physical impact on oral health led to a constant awareness of the teeth, a greater focus on oral health, and a fear of continuing deterioration of the teeth. The participants also reported difficulties eating and ingesting sufficient high-quality food due to pain, sensitivity, tooth breakdown, and previous dental restorations and food impaction when masticating.
Major theme 2: Psychological impact
Participants reported a two-fold stigma of having suffered from a mental disorder and living with poor oral health. Several participants described the aftereffects of an eating disorder like battling a war with oneself.
It's like I'm two. First, we have this high achiever, and then it's like Dorian Gray's portrait. You know, Oscar Wilde. There is Dorian and there is the portrait… There is the real Anna and there is Anna projected outward. The feeling inside of me has been like a wormy rotting corp. #1, 49 years
I haven't had any teeth lately; I've almost felt like a bag lady. #2, 49 years
All participants expressed guilt over having caused the dental damage themselves and felt that the visible tooth damage persisted as a constant reminder of the eating disorder and its consequences.
When I am over the eating disorder, the damage to my teeth is still there. And when I look at my teeth…I ask: what I've done to myself? #4, 21 years
It is the eating disorders, the bulimia and the vomiting that is the fundamental factor in it. There's a lot of shame in me because I know it's me who has caused it in a way, even if it was not me (the eating disorder), it is still me. #6, 32 years
That you have destroyed something that you have naturally, which has been very good and very functional... knowing that you have knowingly or unknowingly destroyed them is even more a burden. #5, 46 years
Shame was another central feeling that all participants reported: Shame about having had an eating disorder. Shame about having suffered from bulimia nervosa instead of anorexia nervosa since bulimia nervosa includes self-cleaning (purging), which three participants described as a reprehensible and disgusting behavior. Two participants defined having bulimia nervosa as being a “failed anorectic”, which added to the shame. The guilt about not being able to take control over the eating disorder led to self-hatred. The two-fold burden of fear had a severe negative impact on quality of life: fear of others finding out about the mental disease and fear of other noticing one’s poor oral health.
I was afraid of being exposed, of someone saying: "But God, what is this (the tooth damage)?" I felt a deep shame and embarrassment over everything I had done… and because I keep an outward facade and I am well-functioning, highly educated, raising a family, married. On paper, everything looks very good. Family dinners, good girl, but inside the feeling was dreadful. #1, 49 years
…there is a lot of shame, there is an extreme amount of guilt when I think about my teeth… I also feel like hating myself at the same time because, I'm not happy at all...
#6, 32 years
Low self-esteem, linked to the poor oral health, was another feeling the participants expressed.
...it is easy to feel bad about yourself when you're ashamed of your teeth because they're so obviously visible and you need to use them too. #2, 49 years
The experience of these participants, of living with the daily burden of stigma, guilt, shame, and self-hatred, was negatively reinforced by repeated unmet needs in contact with dental care.
...I have asked if I can get help (at the dentist) “but no, there is no possibility for you” … you must accept that your teeth look like shit. #2, 49 years
...I feel self-hatred… because I know that I am a fundamental factor in it. Because if I had never started vomiting or had never had an eating disorder, then my teeth would not look the way they do today. #6, 32 years
Living with constant anxiety and worry about the risk of tooth deterioration which would require future extensive and expensive dental treatment also affected the participants negatively, causing obsessive thoughts and disaster thinking. Many participants also expressed hopelessness when dental treatment was unhelpful.
…Okay, it won't get any better. It just goes down, down, and down, I can't seem to get help. I understood myself that at some point I will probably have to make (dental) crowns, and that affected me as well. I panicked as that it is not something I will be able to afford… #7, 23 years
It's a great deal of anxiety because I have the dental damage I have, and yes, it affects me a lot. You learn to live with it and get used to the situation you have with your teeth, but as soon as something happens… a small infection or something completely normal and safe for everyone else… I always expect the worst, that there will be huge problems. #10, 51 years
Major theme 3: Impact on daily living
All participants in this study reported different strategies for managing daily life while suffering from poor oral health. Limiting smiling and laughing by different means was one strategy used to avoid showing their teeth.
I haven't dared to smile in so many years……I have always smiled with my mouth shut…I've learned to talk by not moving my lips so much…Sometimes I may even have covered my mouth with my hand. #1, 49 years
I don't want to smile. Always trying to smile with my mouth closed, always, covering my mouth. I don't want to laugh either, even though I am a very happy person… I don´t want to be in pictures because… there is a chance that my teeth will be visible, and I don't want that... There is so much that prevents me from living a normal everyday life. #6, 32 years
Avoiding socialization and eating with others were other reported strategies. Such measures inhibited participants from showing happiness about being in remission from their mental disorder since they could not freely act out their emotions.
I have a very strong memory from eight grade. We were really going to smile, and I just didn't dare. I kind of smiled the best I could with my lips, but not with my teeth. There were also several people who started asking: How am I doing? Am I depressed?... I kind of started recovering from my eating disorder and was on the road to recovery. But the teeth caused me not to ... #7, 23 years
None of the participants in this study expressed dental fear; on the contrary, many participants had sought dental care several times, sometimes over a period of 10–15 years. Each time, they had extensive dental treatment need, but they were not offered treatment. All study participants were strongly motivated to maintain good oral health.
...I remember the first time I threw up, the first time I understood that now this had turned into binge eating; into a bulimia… I read and googled, and it said that the teeth can be destroyed, so I called my dentist and made an appointment, because I just needed to know if I had any injuries. The dentist did absolutely nothing. The only thing she did was prescribe mouthwash for me and said: Rinse your mouth after every time you vomit. #4, 21 years
Due to their oral health status, which made smiling impossible, two participants expressed limitations in career development and another two, not being able to meet a partner. Low self-esteem linked with poor oral health was another feeling the participants expressed.
In summary, these limitations had a considerably negative impact on the psychosocial health and functioning of the participants.