Thirty participants attended the study. Their mean age was 30±5 years. Six participants were illiterate (20%), 15 (50%) primary school, and 5 (16.6%) diploma certificate. 15 (50%) were married, 10 (30%) were divorced and 5 (16.6%) were single. Two obtained categories were "the need for emancipation" and "sinking factors". The categories led to the development of the main theme of “Ups and downs of drug rehab, experienced by the women drug users. Table 1 shows the inductive process of reaching the categories of this study.
A. The need for emancipation:
Research has shown that one of the main categories is the "need for emancipation," which consists of five sub-categories: “the deviated path, being abused, compulsive drug use, acquaintance with God, a supportive family”. Fear of major changes in lifestyle, fear of complications of physical deprivation, fear of criticism and rejection because of drug use, fear of losing the current status, fear of failure in rehab, embarrassment, destruction of the inner religious beliefs, and fear of family pressure to continue the emancipation path were among the threatening factors in the participants for making the decision to rehabilitate. Participant No. 24 stated, for example:
“I decided to put it (drug use) away. Admittedly, I was accustomed to this kind of life, and when I decided to change it, I was really alone. My husband used drug too. He didn’t pay any attention to me. So, I had to solve it myself and decided to come to the rehab camp.”
The deviated path: the conditions that led to being fed up of the status quo, and reaching a dead end were noticeable with subcategories such as feeling worthless, not realizing the realities of life, the lack of attraction to life and dissatisfaction with it, the worthlessness of the drugs, the feeling of being harmful for others (the family), the numerous rehabs and its consequences, physical complications of the drugs and the risk of being rejected by the family. In this regard, participant no. 8 stated:
“…When I look back I see that I sacrificed two lives for drugs. I did not see my children and my husband at all. I was a black stain...When I refrained, I had a runny nose; I had pain in my body and hands. I could not move at all, I was very nervous and aggressive. I was uncontrollable; I was at the end of my rope. I felt the real danger that I may be rejected by my parents. I felt that it was the time. I really had to stop drug. I had to discontinue drug use.”
Abnormal behaviors for acquiring drugs, like prostitution, theft, lying and the resulting psychological and social consequences such as pregnancy, runaway, self-harm and suicide were among the factors influencing the sense of dissatisfaction from the current situation and the decision to rehabilitate. Participant no. 18 said:
“I robbed and was involved in prostitution to gain money for the drugs. I was a rough sleeper. I said to myself: I cannot live like this. I have to die or find a way out. I harmed myself. I have committed suicide four times, I hated myself. You know what I'm saying? I've been at the end. It was so late for me that I never even got to the middle of it.”
Being abused: Most of the participants pointed to their physical and emotional condition and being sexually abused. In this path of injustice, they decided to get rid of drug abuse. And save themselves. In this regard, participant no. 3 maintained:
“My husband was sentenced to prison for drug dealing and Welfare Organization took away my children when I was down. Finally, my mother-in-law kicked me out of home. After some days of homelessness, a drug dealer trapped me and I lived in a sexual and drug use hangout for six months, I was beaten several times and raped in the hangout and, then, I got hepatitis B and genital herpes. I was homeless and helpless. But everybody abused me. I felt no one cared about me and I was going to save myself. And I came to the camp to get rid of methamphetamine use.”
Compulsive drug use: For the participants of this study, factors such as compulsion, persistent obsession with the preparation, storage and usage of drugs, and attempt to procure drugs by violating ethical and legal norms provided the conditions for their exhaustion. Participant no. 4, who had a history of drug injection, said:
“Opium was no longer effective. I got into cracks, heroin and crystal (methamphetamine). Eventually, these didn’t work either, and I got into injection. My body did not respond anymore. I was permanently drinking, smoking or injecting. That made me think that it’s the time to stop drug use. It was enough. I was tired of it.”
Acquaintance with God: At the pinnacle of helplessness, “God's grace” was a resort for returning to life, as participant no. 21 put it:
“I liked to get rid of the fear of rape by men who came to my home to give me drugs. I wish my mother did not leave me alone that day in the garden to get drugs. I wish that after 10 times in the rehab camps, I wasn’t tempted again. These wishes have been memories for years; and with those same wishes, I will go again to drug rehabilitation. God's grace is my hope for perseverance.”
A supportive family: Some of the participants feel good about having family support and encouragement. It is impossible to deal with problems in the physical, mental, therapeutic, and financial areas without family support. Participant no. 11 talked about this unparalleled source of hope:
“At my first course (in rehab camp) my dad and family came to meet me. I kissed my parent's hands for the first time. They told me we want to keep you here for two courses because we love you. Oh, they told me they loved me. I said, if you want, I’ll stay. When I came back to my room I was laughing. My roommates thought I was nuts. They said: ‘you are told to stay here for two courses and you laugh!?’ I completed my ‘First Step’. My first honesty was that I raised my hand and said I am a drug user. Second, I was finally proud of my parents whereas I used to lie that they were dead. I accept them as they are. I depend on them to stay healthy”.
B. Sinking factors
Although the participants of the study managed to change, most of them failed to return to their normal lives and, answering our questions, they refer to the following as failure factors "non-assisting mates, pro-addictive family, unawareness of assisting official organization and non-government organization, woman’s lack of authority, and ineffective opportunities".
Non-assisting mates: Most of the participants lacked family support during the rehab. Participant no. 14 said:
“My family did not help me at all. They did not trust me anymore. They looked at me with hatred. My children and my husband do not still want to see me. It affected me. It made me more determined to use drugs. They wanted me as an addicted person who listened to whatever they said. They did not want to help me. I used drugs, I harmed everyone, I destroyed everything. They did not help me to stop drug use because they could force me. They took me wherever they wanted. They did everything to me: physical abuse, sexual abuse, rational and mental abuse.”
Pro-addictive family: The availability and the use of drugs by all family members at home was another major threat tempting drug use and affecting the rehab-related decision. Participant no. 17 talked about this point:
“I didn’t know what to do. Drugs were found at my mom’s home, and also at my dad’s home, or my sister’s. When I went to my home, my husband used drugs in front of me. I had to use too. I could not refrain, I had a big temptation. I did not want to use it, but I used while crying.”
unawareness of assisting official organization and non-government organization: Lack of awareness of existing society support services or lack of special rehab centers for women were among the most threatening factors mentioned by the participants. For example, participant no. 20 said:
“I was exhausted. I was doing everything to stop drug. I did not know what to do, until one day I was desperately sitting in front of the TV watching a program about rehab centers. I thought that these centers were for men only. It was very late for me. Now that I think, I see that if I went to the rehab camp when I used only opium, the desired result would have come very sooner than when I used several drugs.”
Woman’s lack of authority: In terms of rehabilitation, most of the participants not only lacked financial resources, but also were living as a woman under the supervision of a father, husband, brother or partner. These conditions largely made them fail to stop drugs. These women, even if they had financial resources, had to inevitably stay with their fathers or husbands. Any time their father/husband wanted, the women had to leave the camp. Participant no. 11 said:
“… After 20 times that my husband was taken to the rehab camp, my dad once brought me there to quit. However, my husband gave him 400.000 tomans to bring me back. My husband wanted me to be a drug user, so that I may not think of divorce or making him quit drugs. He gave me subsistence and I had no options for quitting. I was a woman and needed food and a shelter”
Ineffective opportunities: women drug users participating in the study had gone to rehab camps several times. But they left each time more disappointed than the previous time. The high costs of staying in the camp, lack of permission to leave or reenter the camp, not meeting their children, the absence of a doctor or counselor, lack of physical space and adequate food, and sometimes violent behaviors were factors related to the ineffectiveness of rehab camps. Participant no. 22 stated:
“... The first time at the camp, they were about to beat me. If someone had a pain and was mourning, they shouted at her or slapped her. I was afraid of the other drug users; I was afraid of their looks. It was not good. For example, when eating food, the servants prepared salads but they ate it at the office. They didn’t give any to the drug users. I cried like children; I said if my mom was here, she prepared me salads.”
Participant no. 16 also talked about the conditions of a rehab camp:
“I'm already a postmenopausal woman. I have hypertension and diabetes. I have to take my medicines. But here they did not allow me to take them. One of the women had a bad cold and they did not allow her to take an acetaminophen. They take you out only if you die. It is my last time here.”
Only a few women drug users are able to benefit from outpatient drug quitting facilities. The cost of these centers is not affordable to these women. These conditions, along with getting under the control of men/partners, deprive them of the use of these services. In this regard, participant no. 4 said:
“I went to the camp about 7 to 8 times, but it did not pay off. The last time in the camp, one of the women said: ‘go to the rehab center of Dr. X. He was a professional doctor. But, I could not afford the money they wanted. I tried a lot. I’m not worth more than 50.000 tomans. I wish there was some free of charge rehab centers. I’m exhausted. I’m fed up with trying in vain to quit.”