I / Inclusions.
Thirty-one initial responses were reported verbatim in the medical records of patients by health care providers; 27 semi-structured interviews were carried out and re-transcribed. Eighteen patients were encountered on D0 for a first interview (within 48 hours of the initial request), nine of whom took part in a second interview on D7 (a week later). In the intervening period between the two sets of interviews, six patients died, whilst three were either too fatigued or too disorientated to be interviewed a second time.
Twelve patients were suffering from terminal cancer, three from a neurodegenerative disorder (amyotrophic lateral sclerosis), one from severe arterial and pulmonary hypertension and two had cardiovascular or hepatic disorders. Their average age was 76 years (from 38 to 95 years) with a median of 79 years.
Number of patients identified from medical records
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31
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Number of patients encountered during 1st round of interviews
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18
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(D 0)
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Number of patients encountered during 2nd round of interviews
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9
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(D7)
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Total number of interviews
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27
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II / The words used to express the request.
A – The initial request reported by the health care provider in the patient's medical records (31 records).
Request for euthanasia
The terms of the initial request were primarily requests for euthanasia: “Yes, it's a request for euthanasia” [RIF9]. Only one initial request related to assisted suicide: “If only I could just swallow something and then go” [REF8]. Two statements referred to euthanasia whilst mixing the representations of euthanasia with those of assisted suicide: “I want to have euthanasia in Switzerland” [REF1], “Can you put me down, can you inject me with some stuff so I can die” [REF10].
The injection as a dominant picture.
The predominate image is of injection or intravenous infusion (“injection”, “inject me”, “drip”): “if you were to give me an injection, that would be good” [REF4], “give me an (gesture an sound of injection)” [REF6], “for the drug to be injected” [REF9], “When are you going to give me the injection, will I have to wait long?” [REF11], “I want to be helped to die, I want a drip” [RIF19]. This method of carrying out the act can even serve as metonymy for the wording of the request: “for the drug to be injected” [REF9], “When are you going to give me the injection, will I have to wait long?”[REF11].
Request for help and demand for fulfilment.
Some words expressed a request for help, since the situation was frequently described as unbearable: “I really can't go on, I'm going to have a ciggy with my partner, and then I'd like you to inject the drug” [REF9].
Eleven occurrences of words stated a clear request for help: “help me”, “help”, “the help”. Other requests come in the form of demands: “If you could put me down” [REF7]; “Could you give me some more morphine, if so give me a (gesture and sound of injection) at the same time” [REF6]. Words which state a demand appear eight times: “Give me”, “Do” and terms relating to the wish appear ten times: “I want”.
The time imperative is seen as urgent.
A third of the requests express the idea of expediency, “that's enough of this, I'm fed up with it, nothing's being done to relieve me, it's time to put an end to my life” [RIF6], “It's got to be done as quick as possible” [RIF8]. The analysis of the number of times each of the patient's words occurs revealed 12 uses of time adverbials: “quick”, “rapidly”, “immediately”, or time requisites which situate the action in the very near-future: “this afternoon”, “tomorrow”.
B - The request for help to die in the interviews.
1 – First interview (D0): The request for help to die associated with the altered relationship with the body and the request for a third party to actively intervene.
An alteration of the body and the lived experience of the body
The active request for help to die was frequently expressed as justified or legitimate in the light of a state of suffering which had gone beyond what could be reasonably endured: “I can't move anymore, nor get up, I can't do anything anymore. At 89, you should be able to put us down […] A vegetable, I'm nothing more than a vegetable” [REF7]. Preemptive death was likewise expressed as justifiable when there was no more hope of cure or when “there's nothing more at the end” [REF8]. Being denied their request was perceived as inhuman: “It's inhuman to let people suffer like this” [REF5]. Self determination was asserted particularly in relation to the body: “It's my body, they can't say what they want or don't want for me” [REF9].
Living the formidable experience of changes in the relationship to their body brought the patient face to face with their own individuality. No one could suffer like them and assess what they were really feeling. This state of intense suffering isolated them and made them feel as though they were in “another world”: “I'm not on the same planet anymore. I look at them, I'm not part of their world anymore […] this death is going to happen so you just have to accept it” [REF5].
The determined quest for euthanasia.
Words can express the wish: “I'd like euthanasia […] I'm certain” [REF8], “I want”, “I've made up my mind”, “I won't go back on my decision”, “I'm still determined”. These verbatim also conveyed a desire to convince the third party of their determination, which was illustrated by the frequent use of the pronoun “I”. Some patients expressed their resolution by asserting it as a long held opinion, as opposed to a fleeting reaction: they had “always been for” or they had never wanted to suffer: “I've always thought about euthanasia but now it's worse than anything ever” [REF8].
The request for euthanasia was concrete and expressed either as a request for help or as an act to be performed by a third party: “do...” or “help me to go”,“Give me an injection”. The patients were aware that it would be illegal for the health care provider to intervene by granting their request: “It'll have to be a doctor who's 100% in favour, of course. As whoever does it, well you mustn't shout it from the rooftops, as they'll risk their job” [REF8].
2 – Second interview (D7): Maintaining the request but a shift towards the question of suicide.
The request persisted, but less explicitly.
Two thirds of the patients encountered a week later persisted in their WTHD: “I haven't changed my mind, I should be free to decide […] every day I think about ending it” [REF8]. Whilst the request still featured implicitly in the dialogues, it was less prevalent in spontaneous speech and appeared less agonistic than previously. However, when the patient was questioned about previous conversations, the desire was still present: “If you ask me, yes I think about it every day […] and if tomorrow you say euthanasia's on, it's yes” [REF3]. The issue of legitimacy, or personal autonomy, of the act was still doggedly upheld. The patients were convinced of their right to death-on-demand: “You should be allowed to choose […] You should be free” [REF8].
The wish to shorten their lifespan was still expressed but no longer in the form of an injunction. The appeal for help, which was explicit in the first round of interviews, was not evident in the second round. Words occurred which indicated a form of resignation in the face of death: “There's no hope left, I'm going to die, I know I am” [REF6]. The meaning of life was also in queried: “What purpose does my life serve with all that? It's not a life” [REF3].
A shift towards the issue of suicide and the fear of not succeeding.
At D7, only 2 patients still clung to the idea of euthanasia. The word suicide appeared more often, presented as a means of attaining their aims: “It'll have to be by pill” [REF3], “I think a lot about suicide” [REF8].
This was also associated with fear: “If I go home, I'm scared I'll do something stupid [tears] The stupid thing would be to kill myself” [REF3].
One female patient even worded a request for assisted suicide in such a way as to ensure the act was carried out 'safely'; “It would have to be someone who'd give me...a dose or whatever. But, I understand a doctor couldn't carry out the act, yet it's not the act you're asking for, it's that he simply gives us what we have to take, and then, just, well, that he supplies us” [REF8]. The relative thought of committing to the action remained a source of anxiety. Whilst the majority of patients appeared determined, they mentioned their fear of failing when carrying out the act of suicide: “You'd have to know what dose to take so you don't mess it up or anything” [REF8]. Patients expressed fear of not succeeding or 'messing up': “I think about it but I'm scared of messing it up, then I say to myself 'and what if I mess it up' ...[tears]” [REF3]. This notion of suicide was often stripped of any possible reality, as illustrated by the patient who said: “Give me the syringe, I'll do the injection if you like” [RIF7], but who had been tetraplegic for many years and would have been incapable of actually carrying out what she was implying.
C- Representations of death in the interviews.
1 – First interview (D0): a rapid death without suffering
A request expressing the wish for the act to be carried out rapidly
The majority of patients expressed a wish for euthanasia, whilst for two of them it seemed to fluctuate: the patient expressing that he could change his mind from one hour to the next: “in the midst of an attack, there I am saying, 'give me the injection right now', then well, 5 minutes later, I'd be saying, 'what an idiot I was'” [RIF3]. Likewise, for patient REF1, who only communicated in writing showed the thread of his thinking on his telephone: “12h24: I want to go to Switzerland to have euthanasia/ 17h28: I don't want to die anymore”.
A first category of wording asserted the desire to shorten their lifespan: “get it over”, “quick”, “I don't want it to linger on, I want to go quickly” [REF6], “Have it end as quick as possible, meaning not adding anything, no drugs” [REF5]. The real wish that “it end”, “there's nothing can be done, what do you want to do? Wait, wait. Just get on and give me the injection or whatever and have it end” [REF4] may have been motivated by the loss of any meaning to existence.
Several wordings were formulated by designating “it” as death and/or the desired act: “It will have to happen quickly” […] I want it to happen when I'm choking” [REF6]. It refereed to something indistinguishable, similar to putting a name to an unknown phenomenon.
Aspiring to a gentle death
The majority of patients did not express the manner in which they wanted their request to be executed. Generally, they wished for a gentle or unconscious death “to go to sleep and not wake up” [RIF1], “like sleeping” [RIF10]. Many patients dreaded the episodes of intense pain and the choking fits: “What scares me is having moments of panic, suffocating […] I'm scared of going in terrible suffering” [REF6]. This justified the appropriate moment for carrying out the act: “It was when I was choking that they should have ended it all” [REF5]. This anxiety was often associated with experiences related to the violent death of a loved one: “I'm well aware of the reality of severe illness, I watched my mother die suffering dreadfully” [REF5]. They mentioned that the ideal way to die would be to go to sleep, not wake up and die painlessly.
Two patients, only, voiced the idea of an injection in this round of interviews: “that I'm given an injection or whatever else and then it's over” [REF4] and one [REF5] contemplated deep, continuous sedation until death.
2 – Second interview (D7) : Trauma of witnessing the conditions of a relative's death.
Encountering the suffering of a loved one prior to death
During the second round of interviews, whilst the patients' request for help to die was no longer as concrete, the memory of being confronted with the illness and subsequent death of a relative remained in their words. It related to the fear of dying in the same suffering, in the same conditions as the person they had cared for. The traumatic event came back to haunt them: “Dying doesn't frighten me, suffering like my father did when he died, that frightens me. If death came to take me away, then it'd be a relief” [REF3].